I dont know if it was a Human or a Bot..

Scary question, isn't it ?? Well, it happens that I wrote to google, and I received their answer within minutes, then this question came up, that answer was so similar to the answer of a human, but at the same time was the way a bot responds...., the thing is that if it was a bot, how did it know that I had a problem.., and more particularly in one particular field????..... It freaks me out just to think that in a soon future lets say for example that one of your friends gets a facial surgery, then you ask for the doctor as a reference, and suddenly she says: I don't know if the one who did it on me was a Human or a Bot......
This kind of situation if you think it deeply can lead us to the point where we will be living like the humans in animatrix !!!! I'm a tech lover.., but I think that everything has an edge.., and somehow we are aproaching to the human one....

Lockdown in sector 4!

Gmail is great, it's capacity, it's search engine.., everything is awesome, but I'm very tired of geting this message of "lockdown in sector 4" at least twice a week, and what it does is block my account from 2 to 12 hours, and the reason is that I'm not using it properly.., obviosuly that's not true.., because I'm not sending spam, not even using it as an storage drive and so on..., and that's unpluging me from the email network.

GOOGLEEE !! I hope you can fix this bug or whatever that can be.

Google's quote of the day

This is my google quote of the day:

"Don't knock the weather. If it didn't change once in a while, nine out of ten people couldn't start a conversation."
-Kin Hubbard

Fair or unfair, that's the question...

And suddenly the question comes.., is this fair or unfair ??

Beans...Beans...Beans...I definetively love beans !

On saturday I ate beans for lunch...., then on sunday I also ate beans for lunch..., and on monday (today) I ate beans for breakfast !!! Am I addicted or what !!!!
After playing paintball on sunday I went to my farm..., went to bed very early..., I was shot !!! Jajjajaa, plus that I was very tired of running and all of that in the field..
Today came back to the city and went with naty to see a movie called "Solo contra si mismo", a swedish one.., and it was very good !!! I liked it very much. The preview is as follows:

"Suecia, años cincuenta. Un joven de 16 años cuya vida ha estado plagada de violencia por el maltrato de su padrasto, responde instintivamente de la única forma que conoce... sin importar quien se atraviese en su camino. Cuando es expulsado de la escuela, su madre lo envía con grandes sacrificios a Stjärnsberg, una prestigiosa institución privada. Para su sorpresa, ahí la tranquilidad es inexistente, pues el plantel está tomado por los estudiantes más adinerados y antiguos con la complicidad de los profesores. El objetivo de Erik es permanecer libre de problemas, pero ahí se encontrará con las “armas” para combatir su presente, pasado y futuro."

It has also a lot of movie awards.., in case that you don't beleiveme that it's a good one:

"PREMIOS

Festival de Cine Europeo de Viareggio 2003, Italia "Premio FIPRESCI al Director y Premio a Mejor Actor".

Festival Internacional de Cine de Miami 2004, Estados Unidos "Premio del Público a Mejor Película".

Festival Internacional de Cine de Shangai 2004, China "Premios Copa Dorada a Mejor Actor y Fotografía".

Nominación a Mejor Dirección. "Premios Guldbagge del Instituto de Cine Sueco 2004"

Premio a Mejor Película, Fotografía y Diseño de Producción
Nominación a Mejor Dirección, Guión, Actor y Actor de Reparto.

NOMINADA

Oscar de la academia 2004 "Mejor Película en idioma extranjero""

Well well, time for me to go to sleep.

Paintball: We were the target this time.

This game was diferent..., we were the target this time.., it was supoused to be an easy game.., being us the flawless shooters.., however before starting 2 extrangers asked if they could play with us.. No pro.., so they joined us and started playing.., the 2 guys for the other team...., and they did pin down to all of us all the time...., they were pros ! Anyway the game was pretty cool and is always a good thing to play with somebody better than you. I also hooked up with them to get cheap ammunition, plus to get to know they folks and play with them.
In total, I got shooted 9 times...., 2 of them are already hurting me.

Too Much Cocktails...

Well, yesterday I went to the Melody lounge and got kind of drunk there.., drank something like 5 cocktails called "Putin" in about one hour...., and shortly after that went to the B-Lounge.., richi was playing there again..., I stayed there until 12:30 AM, I was VERY tired..., so I went home.
Arrgghhhhh, and I got my car crashed..., not big deal..., the exhaust got a little bit hurt but nothing to worry about.., however I have to get it fixed tomorrow because one of the rubbers that support it underneath the car got broken..., so it has a weird noise.
Tomorrow I have a final exam at 6 AM, I can't beleive it !! Honestly, I hate to wake up early in the morning.., I'd rather to stay awake until late.
Probably this weekend, to be more precise on sunday we'll go to the fields and play paintball again.
The operative systems final project got moved to the next wednesday.., so I guess that I'll try to fix some small details on it.., after all I've been working pretty hard on it and it's fair to get a sip of tranquility this weekend.

Can't Sleep...

It's 1:00 AM and I can't sleep. I arrove 1 hour ago from velez's house..., we were working on the last project for Sistemas Operativos, it's almost done, but it needs a lot of details that I won't have the time to work on having in mind that I'm the only one who's working on it from a team of 3 guys...., now 2 cuz Velez decided today to cancel the asignature.
Decisions..., small issues at home.., family problems..., I think that's one of the reasons why I can't sleep right now..., besides..., I enjoy writing on my blog at this time in the night when nobody is bothering or calling me.
I got a proposal today from DMG to start working with them..., not so sure already..., looks like a good oportunitie..., it fits on my plans...., at least for vacations..., after all I don't have so much things to do...., and maybe, just maybe I'll continue working as a full time employee..., who knows, because one of my priorities right now is to finish my career.
This computer is so quiet..., I'm just amazed.., because the other one was very noisy.., plus that it used to produce a lot of heat.., thus not allowing me to put it on my legs while I'm in my bed.
Not too much night owls connected to msn right now..., nobody interesting to talk to anyway...
Today a new pal got introduced to our selected group of "critics" at gmail..., welcome Ochoa if you're reading this.
It's incredible how quiet is at night......., I wish I wouldn't need to sleep..., just imagine how many things you could at night..., plus how much more effective you would be.... It's interesting just to thing that almost 1/3 of our lives we spend it sleeping.... I wish I could be sleepless...

Well, I think that's time to try to go to bed..., my mind is going blind.., or white as I normally call it when I'm tired..., so I guess I'm going to hit "Publish Post" and go to my bed.

Cya.

Paintball Day..

So yes, today we went to play paintaball in "La Cola del Zorro" at 11 AM, sunny day...., between us: Tafur, Julian, Luisga, Jorge, and me..
The game was awesome.., we played capture the flag, deathmatch, and team deathmatch. Lot's of adrenaline and laughs at the end.
My best shot was to tafur (See picture underneath) I flanked him and the shot.
I received three shots.., 2 on my right hand fingers (not big deal) and one in my shoulder.., it wasn't that hard though......., but it left a small red point there.



Right now watching "Jade" and there's a funny x-men it's a kind of frog I think....., rainny night.., very very cold..., and a little bit foggy.
Classes are over now....., today I wrote the final paper for "Axiologia" which is an asignature that I really hate...., it's not more useless because it's impossible......., that's what I call a waste of time. Ok, that's it for that asignature.., the remaining ones are Metodos cuantitativos I, and Economia general which are written test's.., and Sistemas Operativos that's a huge project !! That asignature is killing me, I'm telling you.., long long time ago I wasn't that devoted to just one asignature. 2 weeks non-stop of C++ coding. The good think is that yesterday I saw my grades and I need a 2.0 to pass this asignature...., and with the progress of the project I'm to get more than that.

Well, yesterday I also received my Dell Inspiron 6000 with carbon fiber cover...., I'm very happy with it. If I have to give a number between 0 and 5 for the design of this gadget I will give it a 4.5.., nice work Dell.
Time to go to bed. Hope to keep posting more often.

B-Lounging.....

Yesterday, before going home I went to B-Lounge, my Friend "Richi" just started Dj'ing there..., his first session there was pretty awesome...., the bad thing is that he had to end it a little bit fast, because this other DJ Cris was the main one..., I have to say that she suck's..., or at least she's not my style.......
B-Lounge was very changed since the last time that I went there.., having in mind that it was maybe a year ago.., so yes..., I like it more the way it's now...., I think it has a kind of influence from the cubism..., which makes it unique among the other lounges...
This Sunday is paintball day.., I'm going with some friends from the university..., I hope to don't have the chance to put any picture here of myself "impacted" by one of those paintballs. Instead, I hope to publish here pictures of my friends impacted by let's say ME !!!!!!
Hopefully I'll get my new Dell laptop Inspiron 6000 today..., and if not, it'll be tomorrow...., however I cannot wait to get it..., I really need mobility, don't you ???

Shooting some cars with paintball !!!

My paintball finally arrove today....., and with it came a lot of fun. Today at night, standing from a 9th floor we started shooting cars..., not to mention that I achieve the highest score thanks to my aiming skills !!! jajajjajajajajaja, however, I did shot the next cars:
-Chevrolet Corsa.
-Cadillac.
-Mitshubishi Van.
-Bus.
-Mitsubishi Van.
I don't remember any more. BTW, the proper verb to use when you shoot something or somebody with this kind of equipment is "TO MARK".

This sunday we're heading to the field to play there..., so if you like this kind of emotions and adventures don't hesitate to call us or send email.....

Organizers:
esteban8a@gmail.com
jmvallejo@gmail.com

A nice picture that I took...

I wanted to put this pic that I took from the window of my room a few days ago..., I like it so much..., means a lot of things for me. Does it means something to you ?

Making a parenthesis...., talking about "El Hueco".

Well dear reader, right now my brain is kind of roasted or fried What should I say ??? what´s the diference anyway ????..., the point is that concentration is a variable and I´m loosing it or should I say my brainis loosing it with each second that goes away..... The consequence is that I cannot focus anymore and it makes my coding performance in C++ goes down....
That´s why I decided to write here that today I finished a book that I wanted to read a long time ago, called "El Hueco" written by German Castro Caicedo. "El Hueco" tells how the Colombians run away from their loved country which by that time had a strong lack of oportunities focusing themselves on the United States of NorthAmerica going throughout Mexico, Hawai and Haiti. The author also relates the bad tratment that the Mexican authorities gave to the Colombians that were caught trying to cross the "border" between that countries. Lot´s of stories from lot´s of people......... that there was a point that I couldn´t beleive, but sadly they´re true.
I´ve eyestrain now...., I should go to bed now after 8 hours non-stop C++ coding.

Sniff..., Sniff..., my Lava lamp is no longer working.., I've no idea why ! It boosts my creativity when I´m coding, studying or whatsoever...., I´m afraid that I´ll have to buy another one... BTW, if somebody reads this and wants to give me a nice and valuable present.., just give me a lava lamp. I´ll apreciate it more than what you can imagine.

****

End of Transmission.

C++ can you be my friend this time ?

Ok, this time I´ll code it by myself.., can´t rely on third party to acomplish this project.
Right now watching at my lava lamp over my desk making strange figures...., while thinking and coding.....

El Metrocable !!!

Ok, finally I took some time to go and see the "MetroCable"..., for those who don´t know what it is, or what it can be, is a kind of mobile chairs.., similars to the ones that people use when they go skiing..., but this time they´re not for fun, they´ve been built to help to improve poor people life´s.., and boy !! they did a great job doing that !!! It was amazing to go up in the mountain in just a few minutes.



This was the forgotten part of the city, and I´m very glad that the government took them in mind and did a great labor there...., giving something to the people who need most.... Being there make me realize that I´ve everything that I need.., that my life´s perfect compared to them..., that I don´t need anything else..., that I have so much to give...., so much to help..., and that´s what I´ll be doing the second part of these year.., giving my grain of sand to help the one´s that weren´t so lucky, the one´s that don´t have anything..., and need a lot of things.
If you want to help to this cause I´ll be posting here more information throughout the second half of this year.

Finally.., I'm plugged again to the Internet.

Today I got Plugged again to the network of networks.., mostly known as Internet... Jojojojo..., THANKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Well, right now I've to take a shower cuz I need to go to the hairdresser, so I'll be posting in a couple of hours !!

Mother´s day...

Another Great Day !!!
The whole family gathered in the farm to celebrate the mother´s day...., we had a great lunch with a yummy turkey.



Paco, the dog was all the time looking for something to eat from this bird..., that´s why he tried to grab something from the trashcan and this was the result.... You can also see Toby, the lovely french poodle that´s all the time with us at home and also in the farm.., we love them both !



The next day, Paco was very dirty, so my sister decided to give him a shower.... (that´s it paco, good boy !! good boy !!! giveme that hand !!)



And that was it, a very nice weekend with the hole family and the dogs.., wait a minute, they´re obviously part of the family tooooo!!!!

My Mom´s Birthday...

Ok Mami, happy birthday for you again !!! I did a yummy dinner for you and the rest of the family with the help of cami, it was just and simple delicious !!!! I made my speciality..., which is mushroms with some secret herbs, plus onion, some garlic and parmesan cheesee.., and of course, a little bit of salt.
This was a great day........., first of all because we were together this time.., secondly because the whole family, or at least the more important were with us today.

I love you mom !!!

Unplugged....

This is Bad, I had a billing problem with my ISP (Their fault this time) so I don`t have broadband for these days at home.., what a mess !!!!!!!! I hope to to fix that soon !!

House music, sweet for the ears...

On saturday we went to a party with Antoine Clamaran, Alanis and other pretty awesome dj´s.., tha main genre was House music..., which was just and simple great.
It was on a disco called Ibiza, from there you can see all the city...., incredible view.... plus the music equals great experience. The people there was also great, very friendly, got to know a lot of people..., and it was a non-forgetable farewell to my cousin maurop who was going to fly back to Paris on the next day.
No energy is the common denominator for these days..., I guess I´ll have to eat plenty of salads, fruits, meats and other stuff to bring the energy back to my body.

Shooting the stress out !!!

Today I went to play Paintball with a couple of friends..., one of them was Juanma who did fall into a big ant-nest., I´m not sure if he got bitten or not..., but that was funny...., we definetively had an amazing time in La cola del Zorro paintball field. We were 9, 5 in one team, and the remaining 4 in the other one. We kicked their ass....., and I was amazingly un-shoot, until the last minute where I decided to expose myself completely..., that´s how I got shot twice in my leg with blue paintballs (You can check that out in my camo and of course the blood in my right leg.)

However, the main objective was achieved..., to take the strees out of my body. Honestly speaking I can´t wait to get my new paintball gun, because the ones that we got today in the field were not good at all.

Changing a little bit of topic, we couldn't finish the Operative Systems project which is scheduled for tomorrow...., thats sad..., a lot of effort and energy to just see that we were't able to finish it. What the hell...., nobody did anyway.

I better go to sleep.., tomorrow is going to be a veryyyyyyy long day.

Some Action...

I ordered today a Kingman Spyder Rodeo Paintball.., looks like somebody is going to have plenty of fun..., it will be here by the 23th of this month......., and right now I'm just sitting in the front of my computer with a small cold coding in C++ and trying to finish this huge project before friday.., to be honest I'm not so sure if we´re going to be able to make it, and is not that I lost my faith on it, just that sometimes you've to be realistic and see the situation in the way it is..., almost everybody that I've talk with in the last couple of days is in the same situation with this project....what the hell........
The weather here in Medellin is changing like the mood of the girls....., not pretty much, heh ?

A little Breath.

Today I went with a friend to give some DELL support in "La Ceja" in some cultivos de flores..., that was huge.., I was kind of amazed..., all of the flowers where only to export, I guess to the Netherlands..., thats how I spend today´s afternoon.., nothing of study or computers...

Finally I got some pipes fixed !!

Stress..., common denominator these days with my university folks... The Operative Systems Project is kind of hard and complex at the same time...., coding is exceptionally long..., also working long hours is not the exception.... Haven´t gone out in the last few weeks.., I feel like a geek... However, today I achieved a big success, and it was to connect two separate process using 2 different connections called "pipes"..., I made a basic example like the conventional PING-PONG...., it worked.., but it took me 5 long hours to do it...
My brain is fried right now.., need some clubing..

Simon says...

Velez, just install Adobe to anothe directory !!!

Busy....Busy....Busy...

Thats my way of life these days.., tons of study, lots of work, meetings......., but I like that....., I enjoy doing productive things in my life.
Each Day WebLogic is groing more and more............., new customers..., new projects...., a reason to wake up every morning...
Right now.., coding again in C++ for Operative Systems.., I hate that asignature !!!!
I'll post later with any advance.

NODOS = 2

NODO = 0,0

[salida_sur] sumar[entrada_norte entrada_oeste]

[salida_sur] sumar[entrada_norte entrada_este]

[salida_sur] sumar[entrada_norte entrada_este entrada_oeste entrada_sur]

NODO = 0,1

[salida_sur] sumar[entrada_norte entrada_oeste]

[salida_sur] sumar[entrada_norte entrada_este]

[salida_sur] sumar[entrada_norte entrada_este entrada_oeste entrada_sur]

NODO = 1,0

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NODO = 1,1

[salida_sur] pasar[entrada_norte]

NORTE

sumideros sum1, sum2

fuentes fuente1, fuente2

SUR

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fuentes fuente1, fuente2

ESTE

sumideros sum1, sum2

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I was hungry...

After working a couple of hours I realized that I was hungry, so I went to "Taco Loco" in the Lleras park and ate a yummy "Burrito al pastor con vegetales" it was really good.
Also relized the full moon that was above my head which I enjoyed so much. Below it's a similar picture....



Now I'm back to work, who knows until what time in the night..., or should I say "Morning"??

C++, once more I HATE YOU !!

#include
int FileSize(const char* sFileName)
{
std::ifstream f;
f.open(sFileName, std::ios_base::binary | std::ios_base::in);
if (!f.good() || f.eof() || !f.is_open()) { return 0; }
f.seekg(0, std::ios_base::beg);
std::ifstream::pos_type begin_pos = f.tellg();
f.seekg(0, std::ios_base::end);
return static_cast(f.tellg() - begin_pos);
}

Back again to study...

I was having a good time in my farm, but today we decided that we will continue coding our operative systems project, so here I'm, back in Medellin, in velez house getting prepared to start coding.
Julian, the 3rd team member has been away for the hole week while we were working on it, he was supoused to be here on wednesday, but he just arrove today.., and is very tired of the trip from the coast, so I guess that we wont work with him until the next week.
I'll post any advance that we may have..., BTW the objective for today is to be able to make the function that reads that COMPLEX file and put all the content of it on the structure that we have already.

Hasta la vista Baby.

Confussion...., common denominator some times.

I feel that there's a huge empty space right now into my soul......, I think that I know what it is, the point is that is something that I can't have or I should not have, or if I do the pain would be much bigger than the satisfaction or the temporary happiness..., so here is where I ask to my inner soul..., what's better.., a few moments even days of happiness and then weeks of sadness and pain?? Or if it's better some weeks or even months of tranquility paying the price of being away from that thing???

In the other hand I'm here in my farm right now.., it's very cold and there's "cucarrones" everywhere.., to be more precise "cucarrones marceños", they're a kind of flying animals that appear in huge amounts only in this month of the year.., that's why their name.

Maybe a couple of friends will come by later to have some drinks and the usual stuff.

I was trying to play neverwinter nights a few minutes ago, but definetively that game is too complicated right now for me....., I prefer world of warcraft.., lot's of RPG but not too much reading inside it opposite to Neverwinter.....

Sistemas operativos project is on hold for these days.., getting some rest is a good idea.., but I have to start coding another project that I'm developing for myself...., not to emotive today.

Backup ! Backup ! Backup !!

I told you several times "Please make a backup of the data", "Please make a backup of the data", but you didnt listen to me, so now we just loose the last 3 hours or maybe 5 hours of work because of that.., which means a delay in the project. It's 12:05 in the night and I'm getting a little bit tired after working all the day long on this thing.
I'll be posting later on.

Conclusion !!

After working with C++ I conclude that I HATE IT !!!!!! And I've to work with it for the rest of this semester.
The advance today is not very huge, but it's relevant..., I would say we're at a 8.5% right now.
Stay tuned to get more info about the development of this project.

Another day of work...

Ok, we were suppoused to end Development Phase 2 yesterday, but it didn't happen, we were quite tired..., instead we played Icy Tower (I highly recomend this game..., its adictive !!!). We did some modeling of the structure and did a great advance, but it's not enough.., we have a month already.., and only the 6% done......., but I'm pretty sure that today we'll increase that percentage to at least 15% or 20%.... you can bet on that. I'll post during the afternoon in case of any relevant evolution.
BTW, I heard this song in Dawson's creek being performed by Joey, and I liked it a lot...

Cheap Trick - Didn't I See You Crying ( I Want You To Want Me) Lyrics

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me

I'll shine up the old brown shoes
Put on a brand-new shirt
I'll get home early from work
If you say that you love me

Didn't I, didn't I
Didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I
Didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend
You know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I
Didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm begging you to beg me

I'll shine up the old brown shoes
Put on a brand-new shirt
I'll get home early from work
If you say that you love me

Didn't I, didn't I
Didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I
Didn't I see you crying
Feeling all alone without a friend
You know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I
Didn't I see you crying

Feeling all alone without a friend
You know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I
Didn't I see you crying

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me

Operative Systems Project !

I'm working on this with Velez, and Julian which is in the Coast right now.

We were suppoused to start yesterday (Velez and I) the development of this project for the asignature "Operative Systems", the thing is that we didn't work much.
Today we started at 2:00 PM and did a significant advance, well, if we take a deep look its not the big deal., I would say is the 6% of the hole development............... Anyway our goal for today is to develop the function that reads the configuration files for both OS's (Linux and Windows). I'll post any advance that we may get in the middle of the night.

Vandit Night

The holly week is just starting this weekend, I'm going to my farm in the mountains.., cold weather!! I'm also planning to work hard on one of the main ideas that I'm developing right now..., cuz I want to have a big part of it finished by the end of the holy week.

Right now watching a DVD from PVD (Paul Van Dyk) one of my favorites Dj's on he's tour called "GLOBAL".

I wanted to post this pic from a cool party that we had at my farm a few weeks ago.., featuring DJ RICHY...jejejejeje, you're pinching the LPD's pretty awesome, we should do it again soon !

Building the empire...

I just want to remember this day March 17 of 2005, the day when I did realize how I have achieved all of the goals that I've set in my hole life and realize that I'm starting to build my own and huge empire, something that I saw very far away from my life a few months ago... I'm fully packed of ideas, most of them are starting to work, I'll better say that I'm aligning them..., and that process is something that takes a huge amount of time and energy, and the best thing is that it's fullfilling my life right now. I would like to write a book about it..., should I start now ? I dont know.., maybe I'll create a blog for it.., that would be cool.., and an interesting way of describe things.., it would be a kind of modern diary..
Today I also can say that the hundreds of variables that my life used to have before I left are starting to make a little bit of sense again.., each day I manage to put one in its correct place again, with a little bit of deviation in some cases, and the meaning of that is the experience.., cuz if it was the same, would it make any sense ???? .., this gives me as a result a better understanding of everything (thanks for that time!!, TIME, I've to say that you're my allied this days....).

Zap me back to reality..

I enjoy pretty much talking again to my old friends, because they make me realize who I'm from a different set of perspectives which I didnt take in mind or forgot to take a look from in several times.. I also realized today how clear my ideas are about all the projects that I'm developing right now.., also got some insight for them, and much much more energy to put on them. It's hard however, but the point is that if they were easy, we could find plenty of them developed today.., which is not the case of course. I'm going to succed in a way that I cant even imagine right now...., I'm completely sure of that.

New Hotline...

Hey, I got a new mobile line, the number is quite easy.,, if you need me for any reason it's: 3007771881

My Life? My plant ? What does they have in common?

I remember that in the end of srping of the last year I bought in Palma a small water plant. When I got back to Basel it took to the plant at least 2 months to start growing the leafs. In jan of 2005 when I was going to get back to Medellin it did cut the leafs, cuz I wanted to keept it with me. Today, after almost 2 months of being here the new leafs are starting to appear, and the scars of the ones that I did cut are already there. This makes me think that whenever you hurt somebody or get hurted deeply you can forgive, but the scars will remain there for a long period of time.

(This is a temporary image, while I upload my original one).

Hey Kai and Paola I did dream with you both.

This is the extrangest thing that I've dream in the last weeks.
You both know Kai and Paola that I don't know you, we spoke on the phone and a couple of times by email.
I knew that Kai was here in Medellin for a short period of time while I was away.., so we didn't have the oportunities to meet because when I arrove Kai was just leaving to her country.., However, I dreamt that Kai was here in Medellin, because Paola died (I can't remeber exactly how...). Can't remember too much details.., but this is the first time that I dream with people that I've only seen in pictures and not in the real life.

I Extracted the next pharagraph from a book that tends to interpret the dreams called "Enciclopedia de los sueños":
"¿Es posible que asi como nos enfermamos para expresar con el cuerpo nuestras frustraciones profundas, tambiém busquemos la muerte para expresar un radical desencanto de la vida? Y en tal caso, ¿que función tiene el instinto de conservación?"

My thoughts as usual..

I was just thinking that long time ago, when the Internet arrove to my country, I signed for 10 internet monthly hours via the phone line. I used to divide that hours between reading news, downloading some "very small" programs, chatting, reading and writing email. All of that in just 10 hours.
The time passed and now I've a broadband connection which I can use 24/7 if I want for the same fee. It's just incredible...... how everything evolves... However, I've to admit that we have pretty slow connections here in Colombia already..., I hope we can get better connections in the near future.

Before leaving to Switzerland, I use to live in another neighborhood and as a matter of fact in another building. The point is that I became a very good friend of the gatekeeper there, and also helped him with a reasonable amount of problems, he was very poor..., I also got to know his son.., we did share a lot of time, and when I was away he always used to call to my parents to ask how I was doing. Yesterday I went there to see him, to say "Hey I'm back, how are you doing" ?? I parked the car in the street and walked to the gate, knocked a few times, however I couldn´t see anything because of the tint windows. A man opened the door ( I didn´t knew him), so I asked him if Miguel (That was the name of the Gatekeeper) was there..., he replied me: "Miguel died 2 weeks ago"..., I was in a kind of shock, didn´t know what to say.., I just couldn´t beleive it......., then I asked him for details..., also for a phone number, but he didn´t have one.., so I asked him if he could try to get it for me with the other emplyees of the building. I left my old house quite sad, bored and impressed. That´s life, I know.., but it doesn´t mean that it has to be easy to understand.

A cool weekend...

On saturday, after doing some Operative Systems workshops Velez invited me to his farm with his girlfriend to spend the rest of the weekend and get relaxed. I invited Naty, and we left at 9:00 PM directly to his farm. We arrove there after 45 mins, maybe 1 hour, because it was raining..., however everything was perfect. His farm is by the airport, being more precise I think that the zone is called "El Tablazo". I remember that I went to his farm 1 year ago, and when we arrove there I realize that didn´t recognize anything...., so I asked him if they rebuild something or made any change to it, but then he told me that this one was the other house (I´ve never been to this house before) that was located on the top of a small hill.



After eating a yummy Mega Dominno´s pizza, we started to play some Rummi-Q, of course Naty won..., she´s a very good player, I didn´t win not even one match..........., anyway that wasn´t the big deal. After acouple of rounds (Again, I didn´t win) we decided to play Risk. That game was very awesome, but I was quite tired though so I didn´t pay too much atention to it. I got erased from the map on the first place (what a looser !!!), being the looser gave me the oportunity to cook for everybody on sunday (that was the penalty) and a kind of "food-slave".... I enjoyed it because I made with Velez a very cool lunch called "sanduches gratinados con papitas a la francesa", it tasted like heaven !!!!! We got some good words from the girls !! I have to admit it velez, we understand pretty well each other when we work togheter as a team.
After that great lunch we took a shower and got back to Medellin.

Right now I´m finishing a stupid work of an asignature called "Axiologia", quite boring I have to admit..., but now it's done.., time to go to bed I guess.

Adding more variables to my life equation

I started the university again last monday..., and I have to admit that I felt a little bit strange on it.... After one year without doing any studies I got used to everything except studying.., spend hours in front of blackboards and teachers talking talking and talking looks pretty boring for me now.., but I know that is something that I've to finish.. Got a new car 2 days ago, 1.8 Volkswagen Gol GLI, I'm very happy with it. All the roads there in Medellin have changed a lot.., so getting used to them sometimes is a little bit complicated when I'm planning the route to go from one place to another one.
I don't know.., I'm kind of speechless today.., also nostalgic. I'd better get a shower.

Time to move on..

Sometimes life is extranger than fiction.., it's time for me to move on and forget about you.

Pieces of Esteban

It's 6:00 AM in the morning and I can't sleep anymore..., since the begining of this week I keep weaking up at this time and I definetively don't like it.
I arrove on the 14th of jan, and today is 19 of the same month. I'm posting today because somehow I feel that I've landed a little bit more.... I thought that arriving here was going to be easy, it wasn't. Confussion is the common denominator on my life right now. I would like it to be different, but I knew since the beggining that things weren't going to be easy.
Let's put some order here:
My main concern before flying was my luggage. I was carrying a big case, a big trolly cart, back pack, my laptop, and a messenger. Every single piece of this was very heavy, just imagine all the kind of things that you can carry after living 1 year in another country. Ok, so when I arrove to the counter, I checked in the big case, no big problem, it weighted 20 Kilos (I was allowed only with 20), she gave me my passboard and when I was leaving it, she saw my trolly car, then she told me that it was too big, so it wont fit on the plane, also that I shouldn't weight more than 8 Kilos, the fact is that she weighted it and it was 20 Kilos ! She told me then that I should take out some of it weight, to make the story shorter I reduce the weight to 10 Kilos and the rest I putted it on my backpack and on a lufthansa box that the woman gave me. Problem solved ! I took the flight Basel-Frankfurt without any other complication. At Frankfurt, when I was doing the check-in, the woman at the counter again told me that I wasn't allowed to carry all of my hand lugagge, that I should put some on the cargo area of the plane.., I'm sorry miss but I'm carrying a lot of computer equipment (also fragile) that if I put on the cargo area and get broken the airline won't pay for it, so then she told me: OK, just put all the luggage of the messenger on the backpack or something..., so I added more weight to my backpack and another problem solved. I took the 12 hours flight to Caracas.
After arriving in Caracas and waiting for 5 hours, I took the flight Caracas-Bogota thanks god without any complication...
At the airport, I took a cab and went to my cousin's place where I spent the night.
The next day I flew to Medellin....

When I arrove to Medellin, my mother didn't know that I was coming, so you can imagine her sourprise and hapiness when she saw me..., same for my grandparents, my father and one of my sisters.., that day was the best, everything was the way I expected and planned it.

On sunday we came to the city and I got to know my new house..., I liked it, however I felt like a complete foreigner on it... Now I'm getting more used to it.

Well, and my expectatives.., that's the twisted part..., it's like if I saw the light for 2 days and suddenly everything went dark... Too complicated to write about it already.

BUT finally I'm in my home town ! I like it !

Just one more day...

I just can't beleive that tomorrow morning I won't be here in Basel anymore. It's time to close this chapter in my life and open a new one. BUT it doesn't mean that leaving it behind would be piece of cake.
I'm already having some trouble with my lugaage which I hope I can get them solved today.

Excess Baggage

I thought that I had everything in order, but today I realize that I have a TON of things to carry back home. I unpacked, packed again, unpacked, packed again.., trying to put the weight in order, and also to keep the balance, because I'll have to carry a big part of it a lot of time. I hope to not get in any trouble at the airport when checking in my baggage on thursday because of overweight or something like that.
Time is going pretty fast, just 2 days more in Basel and then I'm gone. I think about it and I cannot beleive that I'm leaving. It's a strange feeling.
I'll let you know how was the trip, hopefully I'm going to make it (Of course I will, just that I have a load of things) !

Bye Bye Basel !!

On saturday it was my Good-bye party, most of my friends came here, and I got a little bit drunk.
I also did burn my shirt with a candle.., the thing is that there were not free chairs, so I sat on the dinning table.., what I didnt see is that behind me was a candle that I did put hours ago.. to make the story shorter, I felt something warm on my back but didnt pay attention to it, later on I was getting burned, so I took a look back and my shirt was in fire.., I manage to control the fire but my shirt was lost...., later on that night I just threw it to the trash. Felipe, a friend from Medellin stayed that night in my house, he was also in prtty bad conditions. Some pics underneath:

Paul Van Dyk in Medellin !!!

Well, I went to party with Van Dyk in Zürick on October, what a great party, what a great DJ. I liked it that much that I was looking again for one of his partys in Europe to go !. I didn't find anything, and if I did it was toooo far away from Switzerland.
Julian told me a few months ago that Van Dyk was going to play on Medellin, but I didn't beleive him, so I went to his website but found nothing.
This week I went again to his website and definetively his going to play in my city, a few weeks after my arrival ! Awesome !

The official info (I got it from his website)
04.02.2005
Open Air / Medellin / Hipodromo de los Comuneros
http://www.medellinstyle.com/

Let's Party !!

And another one !!!

I received another later from my private stalker Veronique yesterday, and now I'm here to make it available online, it says:

"Tienes tutora? Prospero ano nuevo. Amado Dizzy. Se muy bien que me quieres !! Yo te voy a querer siempre hasta Forever. Estan todas celosos no pueden ver que yo te ame !! Me odian las mujeres porque tengo Sex Appeal. Abrazo de Veronique.
180 HP.
Tocar 3 X timbre"

There's a pic below of the envelope, pretty original by the way with some bird wing part on it, some written...
Well, life is stranger than fiction sometimes.

My private stalker talks to me again !

I received this letter 1 week ago, but didn't have the opportunity to make it available online, here it goes:

In the envelope is says: "Para mi querido Boyfriend el Colombiano"

The content of the letter is as follows:
"Querido Dizzy, Boyfriend, El Colombiano, Todos los dias nos vimos, de lejos me persigues miras donde estoy con quien hablo, etc. Eres un envidioso lo sabias !! Tienes a la otra amiga la que trabaja en Manor. Dime querido sera que no te das cuenta que vas a perderme, no solamente a mi, tambien a otras personas que no van a mostrar interes por ti. Quienes juegan en la vida con las personas por favor !! Tu te vas a quedar un dia solo !! Si continuas asi si te quiero y tu a mi?. Si te quieres venir al Brasil? Abrazo de Veronique.
La vida no es para jugar.

I have to Admit it !!

Ok!! Ok JuanE!!!!!, your'e completely right, I have to admit it, I was completely drunk singing "villancicos" on the streets on the 23th of december, also singing to the people, specially to that old guy !! ...., I also admit that I almost kick a Junkie because he was asking me for money.., but I can't stand that the government here gives to this people per month the same amount of money that I earn, maybe more, and for what ? For them to enjoy it injecting themselves, to smoke their lifes, and to continue on the non-stop party !! I'm not justifying myself, but it's something that really bothers me, because that's not equity, that's not fair, that's not ethic... why ? Because there's lot of people dying of hunger in other places, very poor people, and I know that this country is one of the richest in the world, and that's why it should use that money to help others instead of keeping and maintaining somebody's else "bad habits" and "ethernal party" !! So f**k you all junkies and do something for your life !!

You can hide your laptop while you roam.

I found this very "original". It's a pizza box to store your laptop while you move from one location to another one. It's objective is to disguise possible thieves from your laptop. Who's gonna think that the guy who's carrying a pizza is'nt a pizza?? Instead a laptop ?
Very original I have to say.
In case that you're interested this is the webpage: http://www.humanbeans.net/

What happened to the animals after the Indian Tsunami?

This is one of the the questions that I was asking myself all the time when I was watching CNN and BBC reports about the Tsunami.
I had a feeling that there were no animals casualities, because I do beleive in their sixth sense. I found this article today on wired magazine (www.wired.com) and wanted to share it:

Wild animals seem to have escaped the Indian Ocean tsunami, adding weight to notions they possess a sixth sense for disasters, experts said Thursday.
Sri Lankan wildlife officials have said the giant waves that killed over 24,000 people along the Indian Ocean island's coast seemingly missed wild beasts, with no dead animals found. "No elephants are dead, not even a dead hare or rabbit," said H.D. Ratnayake, deputy director of Sri Lanka's Wildlife Department. "I think animals can sense disaster. They have a sixth sense. They know when things are happening."
The waves washed floodwaters up to two miles inland at Yala National Park in the ravaged southeast, Sri Lanka's biggest wildlife reserve and home to hundreds of wild elephants and several leopards.
"There has been a lot of anecdotal evidence about dogs barking or birds migrating before volcanic eruptions or earthquakes. But it has not been proven," said Matthew van Lierop, an animal behavior specialist at Johannesburg Zoo. "There have been no specific studies because you can't really test it in a lab or field setting."
Other authorities concurred with this assessment. "Wildlife seem to be able to pick up certain phenomenon, especially birds ... there are many reports of birds detecting impending disasters," said Clive Walker, who has written several books on African wildlife.
Animals certainly rely on the known senses such as smell or hearing to avoid danger such as predators. The notion of an animal sixth sense -- or some other mythical power -- is an enduring one which the evidence on Sri Lanka's battered coast is likely to add to.
The Romans saw owls as omens of impending disaster and many ancient cultures viewed elephants as sacred animals endowed with special powers or attributes.
The tsunami was triggered by an earthquake in the Indian Ocean Sunday, killing tens of thousands of people in Asia and East Africa.

Mother Nature....

I'm amazed with the Tsunami that faced Thailand and Sri Lanka (India), 110.000 deaths and they haven't finished searching already, plus the people that is going to die because of the bad conditions of the water, food and environment. It makes no sense for me that this is only happening to poor countries; first the hurricane this year in Haiti (Also Florida but the casualities weren't as high as in Haiti), and now this tsunami in Sri Lanka and India. I know that this is nobody's fault, but for example a lot of deaths could be avoided if Sri Lanka and Thailand have had installed tsunami detectors, with just one hour people would have had the required time to evacuate to a safe zone. I make a call to the developed and rich countries to sponsor the construction of this kind of devices instead of spending their money on war (not in all the cases).
With mother nature there are some things that can be avoided if detected on time, and those posibilities exist these days, especially for tsunamis, like the pacific ocean that's very well protected but why ?? Because a big part of the United States is there, and this country has plenty of money to maintain this, but what about the rest of the world? If they have the posibility to help others that are not able to do it by themselves, why not give them a hand and avoid all of this killing ? I'm not blaming you USA, but I think that there are more important things that war right now. I think is time to stop thinking just about ourselves and think in the other people that live with us; from inside to outside, I mean, let's be proactive and don't wait for the people to change, let's start the change by ourselves.
On the beginning I was going to do my traineeship on Sri Lanka, but later on I decided to come to Switzerland, the reasons doesn't matter right now, that's life, I feel lucky, but not happy because of that.

I was thinking also that I live in a city of 120.000 inhabitants..., and it's like if I wake up tomorrow and everybody is death except me. That's a lot of people ! How many inhabitants does your city have ?.

Lots of countries and companies are giving money to help this crisis, also helping with food and other materials, which is really good, but the problem is that nothing is being really coordinated, they know that this items are comming but they don't know when, which makes it more difficult to plan and give a better management to the situation !! People is dying out there right now !! I think that it's time to create a world organization just for this kind of disasters. I think that there's not even one country prepared to face this kind of disasters, specially third world ones.

Xmas !!

At the begining I thought that it was going to be a lonely and kind of sad christmas, without my family, friends and PL. However, the last sunday (18th of december) 2 friends arrove from Cologne and Dortmund (Both from Medellin and from the same university as me), and on thursday (23th of dec) Veronica that's another friend that's studying in Belgium (Same university as me in Medellin) came, my roomate took off, Perfect!
First of all we went to make some shopping in Lorrach (Germany), IT WAS MY MISTAKE to buy all of that goods at the same time. The thing is that it was very heavy and we were only 3 guys.., also Luis forgot his passport and when we came back he got stopped by the customs.., and the normal blah blah blah.., until we manage to get inside switzerland again.
We were not even in the middle of the way and we were completely drained of energy, exhausted !! So I decided to try to go and search for a shopping cart somewhere (its very common to find them here arround the city).. I searched for 1 hour and nothing !!! That's bad !! So we started carrying everything until we arrove to the tram station, waited for it and then took it. When we got to Feldbergstrasse (tram station) we went out prepared to take another tram (of course we had to walk maybe 200 mts to get it) and as a miracle I found a shopping cart !!! We put everything there and headed to my flat. JuanE wanted to see the junkies so we went by the place where they're all the time, but we were unable to see not even one. It was difficult to drive that shopping cart because the floor was full of snow, well, it was hard ice actually..., so it was making plenty of noise. We manage to arrove at home at 11:00 PM taking in mind that we went to Lorrach at 6:00 PM it was a LONGGGGG time.
That night and the rest of them Luis and JuanE slept on the floor fn my room (poor of them, but I was going to experience the same pain in a couple of days). The next day I went to work and I met them afterwards..., it was like 6:30 PM or 7:00 PM I can't remember exactly, the fact is that we met on one of the bridges and it was near the red light district which Luis was looking forward to go to. When I met them, they were kind of "happy" (they were drinking redbull vodka). We went to Mark's computer store to get something for this pair of "junkies". They both got satisfied there, and after that we left directly to the "red light district". JuanE was always the first one in enter on those places.., I think he's a PRO on this topic..., however in one of those he went directly to one girl called "Renata", she was from Romania and she spoke spanish.., so we spent there some time talking with her.., I got treatened by the main lady (the one that keeps the business running) because I wasn't driking anything, so I ordered a beer which tasted like hell and ultra-expensive. Talking and talking with renata she told us that she used to charge 100 CHF for her services plus 50 CHF (You have to buy her some champagne), cheap, isn't her? The next thing that she told us was that she used to charge more to the old people, why ??? I've got no idea.., maybe they've to do more thing to make that "rusty machine" work !!!!!!!.
After having a nice chat we left and in our way we crashed with a "latino shop", we entered and there was some salsa music playing, JuanE started dancing inmediatly like if he were on the "tibiri", long steps, moving his head..., the guy was crazy, like a junkie !!! I got some platanos and PAID them..., then we headed to the door when JuanE extended his hand without even looking back and took a Platano and started running. Thanks god nobody in that latino shop saw him, because there was a warning where it said that if they caught somebody stealing they would take "drastic meausres". We headed home and when we were almost there, we saw a small pond with ice in the middle, so JuanE beleived that he could manage to jump on it and get on the other side safetly. The deal was that he would do it if Luis also jumped. I was toooo drunk to even try, so I just kept their wallets, cameras, etc. JuanE made the first try, he fell onto the water like a baby..., jajajjajajajajjajaja, the ice of course broke and he got completely wet !!!! After that Luis did the same... We headed fast to home.., I wasn't sure if they were able to make it.
The next day they're shoes were completely wet, so they had to use bags as a second sock to protect themselves agains the humidity.
Veronica arrived on thursday, we picked up her on the station and headed home...., later on went to Bar Rouge and had a VERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY cool House party..., also some pretty good margaritas !! We arrove home at 3 AM.
NExt day (24th of dec) we went to lorrach again to buy the xmas food but for our sourprise everything was closed.., so we headed home again, and I was thinking on something to Improvise. When we finally got home Andrew (A gringo) and Ricardo (another guy from Colombia - Bogota) were waiting for use here..., so we came into. I prepared a yummy spaguetis with 2 kinds of delicious sauces..., everybody liked them...., it was the best thing I could do considering the contents of my fridge. Veronica got completely drunk, so we were !!!! At 3AM we headed to fame (A club) until 4 AM with no success..., later on we went to my office to make some phone calls to our parents, arriving at home at 5:00 AM. It was a very cool and different christmas..., I fell sleep.
The next day JuanE and Luis went to see Luzern and I stayed with Veronica at home watching movies all the afternoon.., we were quite tired, we also spent that night watching movies when the guys arrove.
On Sunday they all left..., and I felt alone. I missed them so much. It was very cool to spend all this time with you JuanE, Luis and Vero.

Seeing further doesn't mean seeing everything in the gap.

I saw this situation before coming, and I also saw the end, I trust 100% my intuition and I know what's gonna happen next, just don't lie to me anymore, I know it's hard to say, but sooner or later you'll have to no matter what, there's no other way to do it. I'm just waiting for you. Trust me, don't be scared.

Snowing....

It started to snow just a few hours ago, and it feels so cool, so full of magic, everything now looks white, cars full of snow completely white, there's even some people outside playing with it, trying to eat it, thats funny, there's also a small girl that just came to the street to play with it on her winter outfit. I don't know what it has, but it just feels good. I look like a kid just looking throughout the window seeing the snowflakes falling.

Is the Boxing a Sport?

Well, yesterday night I was just watching a spanish movie on "TVE (Television Espanola)" and after it finished they started with something that I did not like much, so I continue changing channels until I stoped on a sport one (thats a miracle, because I dont enjoy watching sports), well, the thing is that they were showing a boxing match and I just started watching it (dont know why....) and the next question arrove to my mind... "Is the boxing a Sport?". Dog's fights are not allowed or at least are illegal, any kind of animal fight is illegal these days.., so then, why they do allow people to fight? I do know that they wear this gloves, but it doesn't mean anything at all. The match was between a US gay and a korean one (this was the final). It happens then that the Korean one was covered with blood on his face while his wife and daughter (12 years old) were watching that. His wife was crying and you can tell that his daughter wanted to get inside the match and take his daddy away. I can't beleive how the mediums like the press, the newspapers, the television can be that NO SENSIBLE and show that kind of things. Why don't you focus only on the match? Why do you have to show the suffering of his family? Whats the point? Sell More? Gather more audience?. And then people ask why people is that violent these days, why etics and values are on the floor, why people doesn't tolerate each other and I can go on and on writing about this. When the match was over (I don't know a lot of boxing, but the thing is that none of them went to the floor, they just said that the winner was the US guy "Markus Meyer" I dont even know why I do remember his name) the TV showed the face of his wife again taking away all that stress and tears out, because her husband was now not going to receive any more hits. This was a sad image. And then is when I ask myself again: Is the boxing a sport? And then the only answer that I found is: It's all about money, like always.

Interesting Conversation.

This happened just a few minutes ago:

BOSS: Hello Esteban, how are you doing ?
Esteban: Hey, how are you doing? Everything fine !
BOSS: Yes, everything Fine.
Esteban: How's London weather
BOSS: Not as cold here in Basel and of course not as warm as Colombia.
Esteban: Jejejejejejejejejejejeje
Esteban: Lot's of work ?
BOSS: Not really, I was awy for 3 weeks, so not much.
BOSS: When are you leaving the company ?
Esteban: On the 12th of Jan.
BOSS: Esteban, you're going to let a BIG gap here in the department when you leave.
Esteban: mmmmm..... (I know, but I didn't say that).
BOSS: Ok, nice to see you again, I guess I'll see you in the beginning of the next year before you leave.
Esteban: Yes sure!.
BOSS: Bye bye..
Esteban: Bye bye.

Spin !! Spin !! Spin !!

I was just playing with a tool that create gif files, and this is the result of it:


SPINNN !! SPINNN !!

My University Schedule

It was difficult to woke up at 3:00 AM to select my schedule on the University Information System.., but I did it. It's not the best but I can't complain, I got good teachers and not a lot of "holes" (Understand hole as time spaces between asignatures).



BTW, my stalker wrote me another letter, I'll post it later.

Microsoft EULA, what a Joke !

Today, I installed the MSN Desktop Search (Beta), and took the time to read the EULA (End User Liscence Agreement), and I found it very interesting, just take a look at this part:

"...We may change this contract at any time. You must review this contract on a regular basis. You can find a link to the most recent version of the contract at http://toolbar.msn.com/. The changed contract is in effect immediately. If you do not agree to changes in the contract, then you must stop using the MSN Software. If you do not stop using the MSN Software, then your use of the MSN Software will continue under the changed contract...."

So, if it means that they can change the contract at any time they want, whats the deal then ?

Lets imagine that my company signs a contract with yours (I sell roses and you buy roses), and when wer'e going to sign it I say: "Ok, I can change this contract whenever I want without telling you, you will have to ask me if I did it or not". Think that for a minute..., will you sign the contract ?

Is this a Win-Win situation ?
It's all about money.., each day I'm more convinced about that fact !

Rest Esteban, Rest...!

I don't remeber when did I take this picture BUT the facts are:

1. It was in the night.
2. It was very cold.
3. I was in bed.
4. I was sleepy.
5. I was tired.
6. My bed was the best in town!
7. My bed was warm.

Sleep Esteban, Sleeep..... beeheeeeeehheeee beeeheeeeeee (Understand this as the sound of sheeps). Lot's of sheeps going throughout my head.

Traveling arround Switzerland..

This was my last travel here in Switzerland, also in Europe.., and what could be better than traveling with some of my old friends from Colombia ?
They all came on Friday afternoon, except for Veronica that came to my flat on thursday night.. We spent the friday doing some sightseeing (Here in Basel I even saw things that I didn't see before), we also did some shopping (supplies for the travel) and laugh as usual. The next day we woke up at 6:00 AM, got ready and then we took off from my flat directly to Grindelwald, there we spent 4 cool hours doing also some sightseeing, poveda did a nice 180° on the ice, Mario nice try !! you need more practice boy !!, later on we went to luzern, saw the most relevant places and after that we met with Mario's brother and girldfriend, did more sightseeing and later we went to Zürick, Poveda and Mario got onto their "best outfit" (You can see the picture of both of them underneath this text, they're wearing a 60's 70's outfit) and I was just and simply surprised because they went unnoticed in the masses, I COULDN'T BELEIVE THAT! People here is used to dress that crazy (Particularly on the SBB) or at least the way they do is crazy for me according to my world perception.., however this was lot of fun to see this guys wearing a long 70's leather jacket, and a hat that seemed to came from an old school train driver, lot's of fun... Later on, we met some more people from Colombia of course, stayed in a bar and then we went to Gaston's place where we slept, I was very tired after all that traveling, so I got inmediatly into bed.
The next day we woke up early and went to "La Gruyere" located on the French Part of switzerland..., it's very particular to see how the language do change in a couple of kilometers inside the country. "La Gruyere" is the place where the famous Swiss Cheese is made. I always wanted to see that.., very interesting by the way.
Later on we went to a small castle on a hill, and when we were leaving the parking place, Mario that was driving by that time thought that he was in a rally or something and he sped up, and when we were almost out of it, the police stopped us ! Now what ! A 200 CHF fine for that !! "It's a touristic place and your'e not supposed to do that here" those were they words !! I was thinking on everything that you can imagine except that Mario was going to brive a Swiss Police Officer..., and I tought that the only ones that were able to be bribed were the Colombian ones !! In the end he gave them 40 CHF and they allowed us to leave (There's a pic in the collage).
We headed then to Geneva.., and in the way there Poveda did fart on the car..., that was unbelievable !!!!!!!!!! My respects for you !!!! You're the master !!!! ..., in a matter of second the "concentrated gas" did spread in the whole car, not even opening the windows the smell went out !!! What did you eat ???? I was fearing for the life of all of us...., this "fart" was with an enormous power !! Actually, I think that is the strongest one I've smelt in my life !.
After getting "disitoxicated" we arrove at geneva, where we spent the rest of the day, saw the ONU, UNICEF, the old town and then headed back to Basel. (No more farts please!)
That trip was the best.., except for the Music of course ! But what can I do, the world is not perfect !
Also, I learned something: (you can take it as an advice as well) The next you travel with poveda buy a "Gas Mask", you'll need it !

The 86 CHF Taxi.

I've been here for 11 months now (It feels like if only 4), and still I'm atonished by the prices.
It Happens that yesterday one of the big bosses (Beleiveme, a BIG one) forgot his laptop here in the company.., so a friend asked me if I was bussy (I wasn't at the moment), so he told me what the mission was.., and I accepted.
Mission: Deliver the laptop to the big boss on the Mulhouse Euroairport.
I was the selected "courier", so I put a handcuff from my wrist to the laptop and took a cab from here (My office) to the airport, made the delivery and came back in the same cab. The Bill ? 86 CHF, what it would be something like $192.000 colombian pesos.., amount that you won't never pay for a taxi there, and when I say NEVER is NEVER.
But who cares, the company paid for it.
Mission Accomplished and I earn a free lunch today !!!!

Unplugged !

Let's assume that I'm not even 1% techy and imagine the next situation:
I arrove to my home 3 months ago, turned my laptop on, and suddenly I was connected to the web..., it's important to note that by that time (Even currently) I don't and didn't have an internet connection at home (Understand this as if I was paying for it), so, let's get back to the point of this post. I turned on my laptop and suddenly I'm connected to my virtual world.., to the network of networks.., mostly known as "Internet". Then I imagine...wow.., my computer came with free internet, so I keep using it... until 2 days ago that the signal went away..... which I would think: "..Oh, my free internet ran over...".
Then I decided to start paying for it, so I went into www.cablecom.ch and found a good deal.., I called' em and happens that to get the service I have to sign up for a 1 year contract ! And I'm going to be here for only 38 Days 6 Hours 19 Minutes and 53 Seconds !! So.., what the hell am I going to do without it ? I have to admit that I'm in a high percentage tied to the web.., and suddenly it's gone. I lost contact with my beloved PL that's the most important thing here..., plus that in winter time (Like now) there's not much to do outside.., and I'm hibernating (Remember the last post?), well..., so there´s not much stuff to do.., my tv is almost the 90% in german.., what means that I can't understand anything... I only have 3 english channels "Cartoon Network", "BBC" and "CNN"..., everntually you get tired of them, beleiveme...., you can't spend a complete night watching cartoons or the same things that they show on CNN all the time: WAR, WAR, WAR...., only showing the fad faces of everybody...., why don't they show something more "Educative" ? Interesting ??. I'm tired of watching the bad faces of every single country....., and also this kind of shit that they shown on CNN only contribute to make problems worse, how are they helping?? !! I even consider myself a victim of that ! My country COLOMBIA has been heavily defamed on it !! That's why here in Europe everybody thinks that the country is something completely diferent to what it is (Sadly a bad image) thanks to the mediums !! THANK YOU VERY much stupid mediums that the only thing that you're doing is making things worse !
Conclusions ? It's all about Politcs, and politics means money.., so by the transitive law we have: It's all about money.., great, isn't it ?

Well, getting back to my post, you eventually get tired also of BBC, it's a good channel, but the quality of it (programs, content) are not very good..., soooooooooooooooo, TV it's not an option. I was reading "The Davinci Code" which I would recomend it to you if you haven't read it yet, but sadly I'm done with it.., I was enjoying it so much.

I know this is far, very far away to be possible, but if you (the reader) are the owner of the wireless network near Erlenstrasse 49, please turn it on again and leave it unsecure..., I want to get back, to be able to broadcast again on the Internet.

People will read again !!

Earthquake

2:50 AM, I was sleeping........., suddenly everything started to move and shake..., I know what this is, a small eartquake..., it longed for 3 minutes. After that it took me a while to fall asleep again.

The Sweet is not as Sweet without the sour...

Thats something that I keep saying to people when they're sad or don't understand a situation the way they should.
Well.., today is the day to say that words to myself: Esteban, the sweet is not as sweet without the sour.
Loneliness, that's the common denominator right now...., and Christmas is just starting. Christmas is supoused to be a time to be with my family..., but this time I'm far far far away from home..., nobody close to me here..or at least nobody that I appreciate that much.., what adds more terms to the complex equation that is my life.
However Esteban, we need to say it again to ourselves: The Sweet is not as sweet without the sour.
Why sometimes is that hard for us to keep promises? I don't get it...., and I won't get it..., I guess is a natural behavior in the Human Being. When you break a promise, most of the times you're not only breaking that: The promise, you're breaking more than that.., sometimes Hearths, feelings, hopes, lifes, expectatives, desires, passions, dreams.., and I could continue listing here a lot of other things for a longg longg timeee.
It's 12:57 AM right now.., and I've been broken.., what part? It doesn't matter at all.., the time is the only independent variable that can reduce and simplify the results of the variations in this equation.

What were you thinking on Esteban ????

I don't have enough cases to pack all my stuff to travel Back to Colombia!!! So I decided to buy a new one, and today I went with the objective to just look for prices. I was walking down the street (HEading to Claraplatz) and saw a store full of cases, and some of them were on sale for just 48 CHF, I could not beleive it, they were of a relative good size, good design and colors, so I went inside and asked for the price..., she told me that she didn't speak english but that it was the price. I decided to keep checking for prices in other stores, so I took the handle of the door to open it, and I don't know what I was thinking on, or where was I looking to, the fact is that I did hit my head with the door in my forehead !! BAAAMMMMMM, what a pain !! So I was stumbled and the lady was saying something in swiss-german that of course I didn't understand. I opened the door again and took off ! I didn't buy the case and today my forehead is in pain !

Choosing Asignatures...

Finally, I decided which asignatures I'm going to view the next semester when I get back to Colombia...
They are:

ST075 SISTEMAS OPERATIVOS
ST104 METODOS CUANTITATIVOS 1
EC055 ECONOMIA GENERAL
HL165 AXIOLOGIA Y CONTEMPORANEIDAD
ST130 DES. DE SOFTWARE EDUCATIVO

I've heard that "Sistemas Operativos" is a hard asignature..., BUT from now on.., I'm going to make with myself the pact that I'm going to WIN it no matter what.
For "Métodos Cuantitativos" I've heard that it's not difficult, I'm starting to enjoy economics, thats why I think that "Economia General" won't be a major problem, as usual some useless asignatures like "Axiologia y Contemporaneidad" that the only thing that they does is drain time and energy, and the last but not less important "Desarrollo de Software Educativo" which I think is interesting (It's from the diversification line that I chose which is "Software Development").

Making some plans...

Talking today with the "Citizen Dildo" and "Maya", both friends from Colombia, I invited them to come to my place, in order to spend the 24th of december together, and also do some traveling later on, we were thinking about going to Rome, that would be nice, I haven't been there already.., and I have seen very cool pics of that city. We're thinking on renting a car, or going by train...., I have to check out the prices for the trains.., because the current system of the Swiss Railway Home page doesn't give me the price for the ticket when I'm going to travel outside of the country...., that's bad.., so I will have to go to the SBB railway station, and talk to an agent and tell him/her what I'm looking for in order to get the price.
In the other Hand, we're thinking on maybe cooking a Turkey for that day...., I've never cooked one in my life, neither I do know how to do it, but I'm sure that the web is pretty full of receipes telling me how to do it, step-by-step... I also hope to don't have to face the same kind of problems that Katie Holmes got involved in the movie "Pieces of April" while she was cooking it for the thanks giving day.
I have spent all my life the 24th of december with my parents and my family, what is really good..., I'm going to miss'em too much this year..............

Right now I'm listening a 143MB session that I downloaded from paul van dyk..., that DJ is just the best.
I'm kind of sad at the same time because DJ Tiësto played this last weekend on my city....., "I came to Europe looking for him without knowing that he was looking for me" ..., that's my favorite DJ... Bob (Julian), one of my friends told me that the party was just great....., specially when he played the song "Silence" ... people went crazy with it.
At the same time, I can't complain..., I've been in cool partys here also..., The Zurich Street Parade that was just incredible, Paul Van Dyk featuring his new production "Vandit" also in Zürich in the Techno park was also amazing................ Conclusion: I Can't Complain.

Plans for this weekend broke up a little bit..., love problems involved...(can't say too much here, because it can compromise the hapiness and stability of third parties), BUT as always..., nothing that can't be fixed and/or replaced.... (By the way., this Paul Van Dyk Mix is just great). I'm just waiting for confirmation on the plans..., who's coming in the end, from which day until which day...... etcetera, etcetera, etcetera.

Confussion...........

Confussion, that's the main feeling right now. Getting closer each day to the finish line of this chapter of my life in Switzerland bring a lot of things to my head. I feel good because it has been a very good experience with a totally different culture, learned tons of things from it, experimented another way of work, another situations that I didn't face before, got to know new things, places, ways of life, new friends, and specially more of myself. Also, I'm very happy because I'm going to see all of my family again, because I'm going to see YOU, my friends...., the university, the student life, to be able to talk in spanish again ( I never thought that I was going to miss the spanish the way I'm missing it...., However, I'm writing all of this in English, because I have some friends that doesn't speak spanish and want to read my blog...).

In the other hand.., I know that I'm going to miss this, to miss the perfection of this country (which is not the best, but it doesn't mean that i'm not going to miss it), I'm going to miss all this landscapes, the silence of the cities, the quiet people, the fact that wherever you go you won't find queues, the loneliness of everything and everywhere, also that when you go by the streets the cars stop to give you the way....., the fact that when I'm in the streets and people is talking in swiss german I don't understand absolutely nothing This and much more things that have made my life here in Switzerland....

Is now, 2 months before I leave, that I realize how different our cultures are........, how has changed and grown this guy that arrove here 10 months ago, how big but at the same time how small the world is, BUT the most important thing is that I'm happy to get back to my City.

Doing Pancakes

mmmm...., I'm not the expert, but this is the receipe that I'm using today for making my pancakes:
-3 cups of flour.
-4 eggs.
-2 cups of milk.
-A tea spoon of vanilla escence.
I'll mix everything...., and that's it.

Eye strain

I tried....for one week doing the exercises that my optician told me to do, but it definetively doesn't work. It doesn't help me to reduce my eye strain while I'm all the day in front of the computer. That's why I decided to use again my eyeglasses.., now I feel relieved, no eye strain any more.

If you're twenty something ... then this apply to you.

"Being Twenty-Something" They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Perhaps you love someone who doesn't love you back, or worse yet, loves someone else. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty something friends.... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion..... GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF US!!!!!

Status = Hibernating

Ok, I know that I do like the cold weather..., BUT NOT THIS !!!! This is most than Cold.., I would say.., it's a "Freezing Cold".., that's why I decided to switch my status from Active to Hibernating, starting from now on until the day I leave...
Days are getting pretty short, full of clouds and fog all the time......, trees are getting without any leaf, the streets are getting more empty each day...., peoples mood start changing.., you can tell.
My decisions now from where to go doesn't depend anymore on who's going, which place, what kind of music, what kind of liquor, etc, etc, etc.., instead they're being depending on how much distance I will have to travel and/or walk in this freezing weather to get there.
For example, I just got to basel last tuesday morning.., my fridge is almost empty.., and I haven't gone to the supermarket because the weather is extremely cold..., adding that I have to bike.., I'm not so sure if i'll be able to make it. Today I'm gonna try, because if I don't I would just and simple die of hunger.

Home sweet Home (Basel)

Being traveling throughout Germany and Holland was awesome.
Seeing again old friends from school, town and city was the best..., definetively there's nothing like being with Columnbians !!! We had a very cool time !
I want to express my gratefulness to my friend "Luis" (when said by german people it sounds like louis, that was funny) who gave me asilum at his place in Köln.... where we did a webcam "striptease" (The word is in quotes cuz it wasn't a real one..., just teasing) to a scandinavian girls without seeing them while talking on the phone..., that was very funny also.... Lot of fun Louis.
I would call Amsterdam "La ciudad de la Lujuria"..., don't take me wrong..., BUT a lot of things that are forbidden in the real world are allowed up there.., what is good for some people..., personally I didn't take any advantage not even from the hookers (It was like buying meat, they were showing themselves on a 3 x 3 square meters room where you can see them throughout a crystal and if you liked her, she would open a door and let you in.... the rest is up to your wallet and/or imagination, I was kind of impressed.), not even from the pot.
When I was coming back I got to know 3 swiss girls on the train that were coming also from Amsterdam.., and while we were talking they said "The good girls go to heaven, the bad ones go to Amsterdaaaaaaaaaam", Yeah right...!!! I don't think that taking drugs and having sex as a madman will give you some kind of stability.., actually.., they were very twisted and immature to be 20 years old. This is what leads me to talk about my "Stability" Theory (I'll write about this later on).

From Left to Right: Esteban, Andres, Mario.
Location: Munich, Olympic Area 1976.
PD: Andres was grabbing my ass, that's why the spontaneous laugh.

Getting to know Germany..

So far, traveling in Germany has been the best. (Currently I´m in Köln)
I´ve had very cool momentos, like drinking multivitaminico (Thanks for that Mario), "Ah parce, no quiero descompletar el billete" (jajajja, that was really funny Maria Camila), "NAchos con Queso" said almost perfectly by a German waitress, "tupale, tupale..." very funny also (This word came from Francisco el Matematico, especifically from Jhon David), and on and on and on... My friends are the best.

SO far I´ve been on:

-Stutgart: Very nice city, I took cool pictures there that I will post later on (I´m not at home already).
-Munich: Lots of money everywhere...., interesting things to see.
-Berlin: Just amazing.
-Köln: YOung people again !

Just....

"Many people have great difficulty telling the difference between reality and shadows as perceived reality."
-Plato -

Got a New Plant..

Today I went into Laura's office (Next door) and there was a BIG plant over there.., without being watered for at least 1 month..., so I asked her if she was thinking on putting water on it, and she told me that if I wanted it I can keep it.., so I brought it into my office.., now I feel better with it.. I just put some water but the Moisture Meter keep the arrow in the "dry" state..., I'll wait until tomorrow, you know son.., the water has to go down..., and then I'll take a decision.
:P
BTW, I'll put a picture of it in a couple of days.., I don't have my Camera here.

Business....$$$$$$$$

That's what I'm thinking all the time..., I just want to get back to Colombia and set up my very new Business. I'm getting some customers here in Switzerland to be able to work from my Country (Colombia) while I finish my studies.
Clear Objectives..that's the key !

Another flawlessly week..

No more stalking letters from this women during the last week !! I think that I finally got rid of her !
Good work Esteban !! keep it UP !

Germany and the Netherlands..

After reading the 98 emails that were waiting for me on my inbox, I'm being able to plan a little bit the travel that I'll be performing this friday with Vero Henao, a very good friend that is doing one semester of her university in Belgium. First we'll go to Karlsruhe where Andres Poveda, another friend from Colombia that is doing the same as Vero, and meet there, shortly after that, we'll go to Münich, then Berlin, later on Cologne where I'll meet my friend "Lufer" (Finallyyyyyyyyyyyy) and have some drinks and party with him; I'll say bye to Vero, she will get back to Belgium and then I'll continue climbing the continent until the Netherlands, more particularly until Amsterdam, where I'll spend 2 days... then I'll get back to my beloved Basel.
That sounds like a plan Boy..., but please ! First check your visas !!! Jejeje, I already did..., I'll only have to go throughout Schengen Zone.., so I'm expecting NO PROBLEMS this time.

End of transmission.

Trying to look like Mules...

After seeing this movie "Maria Full of Grace", my friend Dinko got very affected by it and all the time he was speaking about "Blanca", "Lucy" and "Maria", the ladies that act as mules on the movie. Somehow, on our way to croatia, one of our friends brought a package of snacks.., and each of those was of the size of the balls that the "mules" ate at the movie. He then thought that he was a mule, taking one of the snacks, simulating that he was putting it first on a pot full of oil (to make it go easier throught the throat), shortly after that he swallowed it. Boy he almost got killed !!! He told me not to do it, but I did..., the rest of the trip my throat was dying.

Bye Bye Croatia..

I was going to Croatia on thursday of last week with Dinko and 2 girls more (the 3 of them from Croatia) and after 10 hours of being in a car, we arrove to the slovenian border Between Italy and Slovenia if course...., it happens that it is part of the European Union but it's not a Schengen State already, SO to go across the country I was supossed to have a visa for it, which I didn't have by that time.... Holy crap............, what next ? Calm down my friends.., we wen't then to Italy again and drove to a city by the sea called "Trieste", so the 2 girls droped us there (Dinko and me of course) at 5:30 PM to try to get a visa the next morning. Obviously we couldn't because we only found a consulate, and what we were needing was an embassy.
We slept in a crappy Hostel, it looked more like this motels of "mala muerte", but anyway..., the next day I didn't even take a shower because of the status of the bathroom... However, we found out that it wasn't going to be possible to get a visa, so Dinko took a train back to Croatia, and I took a train first to Venezia, then to Milano, then to Chiasso, then to Lugano, and then finally to Basel. Got home very late in the night....

No more presents..

Finally my stalker decided to not send any more presents and/or letters. I guess that she got deceived when I wrote her that I was gay. Obviously I'm not, but it was the only way to get rid of her without hurting her feelings even though if she sent me very nasty things.

Just....

The sweet is not as sweet without the sour.

Movie Night.

Yesterday I went to watch the movie "Maria Full of Grace", it shows how the drugs are transported by "mules" from Colombia to the United States. It's very crude, somehow I was kind of sad and bored after it, maybe because my country is being shown to the rest of the world with this kind of things that people is doing to try to get a descent life or to solve money problems.

It's just sad to see how people is being treated in this black market like it's name "mules", not like human beings, loosing all their dignity.

In the other hand, I liked it, because as I said, it's a crude movie that sows the reality, generating impressions and as a fact generating change or at least in the worst case some reflection with the masses.

Caffeine = Headache ?

I have been with a headache for almost a week..., sometimes it goes away, and sometimes it comes back. The point it that I'm having lot's of caffeine, maybe 4 or 5 cups/daily... I know, it's not healthy (I read that on the web).

That's why I started today my "Reduce Caffeine Campaign" with the objective to reduce/eliminate the daily coffees to at most 2 by the moment, and eventually to 0 (I know it's gonna be hard, cuz that's my daily fuel).

Took 2 advils 1:30 Hours ago, and it's gone.., hope to keep it away for the rest of the day...

I have a stalker, and that is freaking me out !

The story began maybe 7 months ago, I was just starting my life here in Basel, and one day I went down stairs (in my apartment) to pick up my bike. What a sourprise, I met with a 60 - 65 years old laddy with a dog, so I say "Hello", and then she replied yelling at me that if I was going to stay in Switzerland I will have to speak Swiss German, she was very mad, but I dont know why. The things remained like that, and I use to hang out a lot with a guys that have a computer store on the first floor of the building (The crazy lady lives in a house in the backyard), and each time we saw her we started to bother her, I was angry with this lady.
One day, that was in summer (July) the lady was in the backyard and I was looking throught the windows, then this guys started yielling something to her, and finally I told her "loca" (That word means crazy in english). For my sourprise, she replied to me in Spanish. I was really curious in knowing why this lady was speaking spanish, so I started talking to her and she told me in 15 minutes almost all her life story. Her father was swiss, and her mother from Peru (I'm not so sure about this part), so she used to live in LA (Read it as Latin America) for some years, that's how she learn to speak spanish (Bingo!). Anyway, to make ths story shorter, we never spoke again..., and the next incident was a bottle of champaign plus a glass in the door of my friends store (Obviously for me). I took it and saw that the cork didn't have the seal, so I was scared that she would have put something on it to poison me or whatsoever. I threw it to the toilet......... I didn't reply nothing to her.
The next week, I got a bottle of "Whisky Johny Walker Red Label", but this time it was properly sealed (It's already on my flat....) and with the next letter:

(In the Envelope)
Para mi querido Sexymen el Colombiano.

(In the Letter)
29.09.2004
Querido Amor, Siempre pienso en ti, donde estoy te veo delante de mi. Hasta ahora no tuvimos la oportunidad de conocernos de mas cerca.Ya sabes que tengo el perro, y tengo mucho que hacer en casa.No me puedes escribir el dia que podamos salir como ya te dije, no aqui ! Quiero estar la noche toda (sin tus amigos) "contigo" abrasada fuerte, sintiendo tu cuerpo abrazados bien fuertes no solo 5 minutos la nocha toda !Te amo abrazo fuerte de Veronique !

Shortly after this letter she sent me another present that was a scarf and a pair of globbes, and they weren't new.. They smelled like hell..., so I threw them again to the trashcan.

Now I'm freaked out..., she sent me today a piece of paper, full of condoms and says:

"Para los maricones el Colombiano you are fire y Amigos ! Lo pueden usar, lo necesitan. Tu Amor Veronique de todo corazon".

I conclude that she's definetively crazy, and somehow that kind of things scare me and a LOT, because you never know what kind of things this people is able to do.

Pure Shores by All Saints.

I like this song....

I've crossed the deserts for miles
Swam water for time
Searching places to find
A piece of something to call mine (I'm comin', I'm comin')
A piece of something to call mine (I'm comin' comin' closer to you)
Ran along many moors
Walked through many doors
The place where I wanna be
Is the place I can call mine (I'm comin', I'm comin')
Is the place I can call mine (I'm comin' comin' closer to you)
[Chorus]
I'm movin', I'm comin'
Can you hear what I hear?
It's calling you my dear out of reach
(Take me to my beach)
I can hear it calling you
I'm comin' not drowning, swimming closer to you
Never been here before
I'm intrigued, I'm unsure
I'm searching for more
I've got something that's all mine (got something that's all mine)
I've got something that's all mine (got something that's all mine)
Take me somewhere I can breathe
I've got so much to see
This is where I want to be
In a place I can call mine (call mine)
In a place I can call mine (call mine)
[Chorus]
I'm movin', I'm comin'
Can you hear what I hear?
It's calling you my dear out of reach
(Take me to my beach)
I can hear it calling you
I'm comin' not drowning, swimming closer to you
Movin, Comin', can you hear what I hear? (Hear it out of reach)
I hear it calling you
Swimming closer to you
Many faces I have seen
Many places I have been
Walked the Deserts, swam the shores (Coming closer to you)
Many faces I have known
Many ways in which I've grown
Movin closer on my own (Coming closer to you)
I'm Movin, I feel it
I'm Comin, Not drowning
I'm Movin, I feel it
I'm Comin, Not drowning

Happiness + Sadness + .... + ... = "Neutraliness"

So the question is: What would you feel if you put in a blender some feelings and sensations like: Happiness, sadness, frustation, confusion, pride, anger, disappointment, stress, impotence and then turn it on ?? All of this will get (Quite fast) mixed, obtaining weird sensations and obviously weird states.
The problem here is that I'm mixing of all this at the same time..., what doesn't allow me to process each thing separately or at least think in future what would be the result (bad thing) expecting the unexpected. I would prefer just to add sensation by sensation, taste what it tastes like, and then add another and another and so on.., having almost a total control over the mixture/situation or at least know what to expect or how to act, what is kind of complicated, because in real life sometimes you can't control when/where the situations are going to arrive.

The result of all of this would be and is something like being in the stratosphere, I don't feel nothing now, it's like a neutral state, and is because some ingredients crash with other ones like when you have two numbers let's say 3 and -3 and then you add them 3 + (-3) = 0. Now, if we replace the 3 for hapiness and the -3 for sadness we would get: (hapiness) + (sadness) = ?.
To resolve this equation first I would to add a new feeling called "neutraliness" and the description would be something like when you're tired enough that you don't feel anymore pain even if it's present, when nothing is important to you any longer...., it's like if you weren't feel anything. Just living.... In other words, the best explanation for these are the maths. A 0 (read it as zero) is the best answer for the equation.

So I get:

(hapiness) + (sadness) = 0 (read as neutraliness).

A Zero..... a big Zero....

Battery cells = Empty

I feel like without energy today.. I just took a strong coffee, but not started yet to feel the effects. It's raining..., and the only thing that I want to do is go to my bed. Each day when I wake up the day is darker and darker..., the're getting shorter...

There are moments like this, when I feel that my life is like a puzzle, and that some parts of it got scrambled, what makes me feel kind of weird and disappointed. I know that I will put them back in order again..., just that when a lot of things comes at the same time I don't know where to start BUT I have to.

Caffeine...

It's 3:05 PM, and I'm falling asleep..., the solution............ caffeine.
I was thinking on taking decaffeinated, the problem is that it doesn't keep me awake but is healthier..., so I decided to take the strongest one and forget about the healthy part of it..., the one in the purple cap... I'm telling you, is really strong... right now is here on my desk, just waiting to be drink... It's with a lot of foam what make it look very yummy !

The Circus !

It's been 8 or more years since the last time I went to the Circus ! A place full of charm, magic and numbers; people making their best to make us have a good moment.
So I went to the circus the last friday night with a couple friends, I felt like a kid again..., just watching and being amazed with all of this people doing their tricks, jumps and I can tell that the circus somehow have evolved..., there's no clowns, instead the main character was Charles Chapplin, and in the meantime when the middle ring was being prepared for another number I was entertained by MIB (Man In Black) with lanterns, higlithing people like if they were looking for somebody.
My conclusion is that's good to be a KID again, its ok to laugh, to have a good moment...., to feel for a while that all that charm of the circus is like the magic.