Silicone..

I´m shocked !!!.., today I decided to go to the gym in the morning cuz I have something else to do on the afternoon, so I went there and started to see lot´s of womans with silicone on them..., I decided to count and got a rate that 2 womans out of 3 had silicone implants on them... Isn´t that too much ?? I´ve read and found out that Medellín is a city with a very high rate in this kind of surgeries..., why ?? Some people says that´s because of the fashion mostly..., at the same time Medellín is one of the cities with higher rates of bullimia (is that the correct way to write it??) and anorexia........, they also say that´s mainly because of the fashion.... So my question is what´s the fashion doing with our nice people ?? To be honest I prefer a girl without any kind of surgeries, makeup or whatsoever.., I prefer natural people.., however I´m not against a little bit of vanity to fix some imperfections but here this is going crazy... To fight that, EPM (Empresas Públicas de Medellín) in association with other companies are throwing a pretty nice and strong campaing about all this kind of #%$#%#, showing for exampel a cammel with huge back implants on it (looking pretty ugly), a pretty thin giraffe (looking also ugly because that´s not natural...., I mean, not normal). I´ve found girls with huge implants on them that instead of looking nice they look like porno stars.. and to be honest I don´t like that, it doesn´t look right...
A few weeks ago I was at the university doing the line at the cafeteria to buy a yogurt, I looked back and saw this extra thin girl.., obviously she was anorexic.., you can tell by the color of her skin, the way her hair is..., and other couple of things that I´ve learned from girl-friends that have been throughout anorexia or bullimia. But this girl..., it reallly shocked me..., the width of her arms and legs were just soooooo thin that I think that if somebody touches her she will break inmediatly.....

Email sent..

Sometimes is difficult to accept something.., a something that you have always looked for, dreamed for, worked for, fighted for.... It´s not easy to accept and understand that it won´t be possible at least for now, turn down all of those expectatives that I could have, set them aside....... That´s why I didn´t wrote this email that I should have sent days ago until today...., an email that wasn´t easy to write, to compose... I guess is one of those emails that I think twice before releasing the "Send Email" button..., and that I don´t want to send.., that I don´t want to accept.., but that I have to..., that I must face and accept the way they come no matter how and no matter when and where..
It´s interesting, because I should be feeling sad about it, however I feel ok, but I have to admit that it wasn´t easy to "digest"..
But as I always say when I´m in this kind of situations, when one door gets closed another one gets open, so................................................... I let the rest to your imagination.., because that´s the only place where I can find an answer.

Lava Lamp...

So I´m here, sitting at my new workstation finishing Analisis´s Numerico final work..., looking at my lava lamp bubbling while I try to get new Ideas on how to finish this thing....
There´s also this cold that is making me sneeze the hole day.., I have to admit that mj contributed to it somehow...jajajjaa, I´m not that sure about it..., but I think that my defenses came down after the rush and stressfull that was my life in this las 2 weeks..., in the meantime I´m drinking green tea with honey like a madman to see if I get any better... (I´m pretty sure I will.., it´s not that bad this cold.., it´s just that sometimes I want to make a big think out of a small one..., just teasing you in case you haven´t realized it...)

In the other hand I love my new place of work.., next by the balcony at home.., looking at the threes and again the squirrels..., I definetively like very much my work when I´m near the nature..., and the view it´s just amazing....

ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Zzzzzzzzzz is not present right now on me and that´s quite extrange because usually I sleep a lot during weekends.., maybe it´s a collateral effect of the green tea ?? Hope so, because if it is (And I think it is) I´ll definetively switch from coffee to tea.

Ok, I shall get back to study !

Black !

I bought this game for xbox 1 week ago and now it´s over..., I thought it was going to be longer.... Awesome game.., I highly recommen it.

Midnight..

It´s midnight.., and I just decided to have a break from my studing session, it feels so quiet, plenty of silence... I like that..., the only sound that I can hear are the keystrokes of this computer..., nothing more nothing less...
I have to confess that I do feel tired these days.., soooo much to study.., soooo much to do.., I just want to finish this university and have a break for a while, enjoy the small things and don´t have to be in a rush all the time..I hate that.
I´d better get going back to studies...

Cursed or Blessed?

This is an open question that came to my mind while I was talking to a friend: Is knowledge a curse or a blessing?
From my point of view I can tell that it´s a blessing, even though it has of course it´s own disadvantages.., I´ve got into a looooot of problems because of "knowledge" but at the same time I´ve got a huge amount of opportunities because of it...., so the answer to my question is that it has as everything a BALANCE (Like I always say), and if you can´t keep that balance then get prepared because problems are going to be reaching you. One good balances one bad.., which is equal to 0 !! So 0 is the answer...., like everything.., just take a look at one of the smallest things on earth: An Atom.., which is composed of positive and negative charges always looking for a balance.., and if doesn´t get it, it becomes something else.....

Short but interesting.

Pico y Placa

I drove out of the university and saw a car standing by the side of the road,
I saw it´s plate and saw that it ended in 0, wich means that it had pico y placa
today, and the "azules" where putting an infraction on him.., and I thought for
myself.., poor lady.., and continued driving..., then I started to think and
realized that today (Wednesday) I have pico y placa, so I had 2 options..., the
first one was to stop, and the second one was to avoid the law and continue on
my way to my office that by the way was quite near... I decided to stop and parked
in an empty spot of a building.., and from there I saw the road that I was supoussed t
to take.., and guess what.., at the end of it were 2 "azules"..., which means
that if I didn´t stop like I did the the most probably thing is that I would
have gotten an infraction......

Hot Chocolate

I´m sitting in my farm..., in a pretty old desk, I think I was used by
my grandma when she was young.., so I can somehow imagine
how old it is..., while it´s raining. The roof
is made of wood, so you can feel every single drop of rain that fall´s over it.
I´m already writing my thesis..., silence is everywhere.., no linghts at all in
the surroundings....
The maid just brought me a cup full of empanadas a and hot chocolate, which is perfect
because I´m kind of freezing... I would rather definetively being by the chimenee but
the thing is that my family is there and there´s a lot of noise, so I won´t be able
to get concetrated.
It´s sad to not be able to be with them, sharing, laughing, and doing all of
the things that they´re doing right now.., because this doesn´t happen quite
often...., instead I need to write this Thesis to be able to get graduated..., which by now is
47 pages long already..., and I have to add to it a lot of things that I haven´t finished
figuring them out already.., so I would say that I´m on a 35% ~ 40% of progress..

In the other hand I was supoussed to start writing again my thesis today at 1:00PM, but after
seeing david´s bicicross competence at the columbus school and getting pretty wet
I was just so tired.., so I just falled asleep until 5:00PM.... I woke up and started
writing it again.. It´s 7:22PM and I think I´ll continue until late in the night.

After 3 hours of typing, I´m posting here again...., and now I´ve written 72 pages non-stop...., which
in my opinion is a good advance....

No time at all !

With no time at all, this last weeks and weekends have been somehow the worst..., not even being able to go out, to chill out or to do just and simple nothing because of the study. My thesis is taking almost all of my time if you take in mind that it consists only of the weekends and the nights after work, with análisis numérico final work that its supoussed to be a 3 persons job actually being done only by me, because the other 2 guys are like in the stratosphere or something like that..., and if you add to all of that the normal studen life quizes and partials then my time is more than full..., and sometimes I like that but after a while I get tired of it. This week I was sopussed to start again at the gym, but my hand wasn´t that good at all, and at the same time had plenty of school related things to do and I really miss it.., maninly because I breath a different kind of air there..., my body gets oxigenated which makes me feel ok even if I´m pretty stressed out..
There´s something that I haven´t posted here already, codenamed ITP, but I don´t want to get into details upon I have something more certain that what I have now....

My last post was "Maybe" and it was yesterday.., I really liked that song.., from stereophonics.., it has a "I don´t what in a I don´t know where", I guess that´s the reason I liked it sooo much.

Maybe..

Maybe one thing
Maybe something
Maybe nothing
All I know is friend
Its nothing new

Maybe its me
What is to be?
Maybe lucky
All I ask is where
Were sposed to be

I give a lot
I take a lot
Its nothing new to me

Maybe youve grown
Am I so wrong
How longs too long
All I want is us to be happy

Maybe moving
Always proving
Am I losing
All thats meant to be?
Thats meant to be?

Ya hear a lot
Ya told a lot
Its nothing new to me

Maybe laughing
Something lacking
Always sometimes
All I hear is how, its meant to be

Maybe learning
Always searching
Am I asking
Things Ill know too soon?
Ill know too soon

We talk a lot
Dont do a lot
Its nothing new to me

I give a lot
I take a lot

Its nothing new to me

Funny Picture..

When Heading to Carambolas Rosy took and modified this picture and putted on me a kind of "mask", it was pretty funny...., she called it "Batman"....
The one on my left is my uncle Diego with a kind of modification too on his forehead.

Book : )

In spanish its called "Un mundo feliz" but I searched for it on Amazon.com and found that the name is "Brave new world" written by Aldous Huxley.

Amazon.com
"Community, Identity, Stability" is the motto of Aldous Huxley's utopian World State. Here everyone consumes daily grams of soma, to fight depression, babies are born in laboratories, and the most popular form of entertainment is a "Feelie," a movie that stimulates the senses of sight, hearing, and touch. Though there is no violence and everyone is provided for, Bernard Marx feels something is missing and senses his relationship with a young women has the potential to be much more than the confines of their existence allow. Huxley foreshadowed many of the practices and gadgets we take for granted today--let's hope the sterility and absence of individuality he predicted aren't yet to come. --This text refers to an out of print or unavailable edition of this title. "

I finish reading it yesterday, and it like it very much...., sometimes I even think that today society shall have some of the points he describes it in the book where the concept of "individual" doesn´t exist at all, but as I said "ONLY SOMETIMES!!!" because somehow that would create a kind of order, balance and equity in this unbalanced world.

We can see in nature, ants for example since the first moment they born they already have a place and a described function in their society, for example the workers ants are going to be workers for the rest of their lives until they die, you won´t never see a worker ant becoming a warrior, or become king or something like that.., that´s how they keep their balance, and we can see that panorama in other species..., but the problem comes when the species can think and when the species can make questions about his own life..., when it sees differences...

In the other hand, a question that just came to my mind.., what would happen if in Huxley´s society people ran out of "soma"?? if for any reason the natural resources used to make it just ran out ?? I guess they would figure something else out, but in the meantime their society would become a chaos !!! So, he´s world is not perfect at all for the simple reason that people is not happy, and that´s why they need to be taking that pills all the time..., so is it really worth it to have a balanced world if people is unhappy? Switzerland for example is somehow a "perfect" country full of beauty, full of nature and with no crime, no poverty, no hunger, no nothing !!! But is the country with the HIGHEST rate of suicide !!!!!
Latin America, one of the most poor continets in the world, acording to a research is where people lives more happier !!! and if we take a deep look we have a lot of poverty, crime, and I can continue listing things here... BUT that´s what makes the difference, that´s what makes that every day counts ! that every day is different and has its own flavor !! Maybe the feeling that we don´t know how tomorrow is going to be is what keep us like that..

I guess unbalance is the price that we have to pay for being happy......

Hangover..

Today I´m a little bit hangovered....
Yesterday was poveda´s birthday.., we went to "El Sombrero" in Envigado City..., we had a pretty cool time..., the thing is that I didn´t have dinner.., so at poveda´s house I had 3 tequillas and that was enough to get me drunk.., well not drunk exactly but a little bit.
I think that the last time that I drank was 1 or 2 months ago..., so much work, so much study..., so many things...

I´m trying to work in my thesis and at the same give poveda advice on his and honestly I can´t focus.., I hate when that happens.., I mean..., being hangovered is the worst.

Tonia drove my car yesterday.., I wasn´t that drunk to not being capable of driving..., but it was just as a precaution..., it´s just so good when you have somebody that takes care of the driving..

Today is Thursday and I´ve advanced so much my thesis..., I haven´t done anything except working on it........, I need a rest.

Quote of the day..

I read it today, and found it very true in my life:

Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh.
- WH Auden

Surgery on it´s way..

I can see it coming and I don´t want that day to arrive..

I have this terrible pain on my right hand again, the doc says it´s because of the highly use of the computer, so I´ll have to go and do some exams on it to see if it´s necesary or not.... It feels pretty weird actually, because it´s not pain, I mean, it´s pain but not that one that is really hard on you, this one feels quite extrange, it feels like if a beam of electricity went over it..

At the Gym it´s also becoming a problem..., because in some exercises I can feel that beam and I hate it... So I guess esteban that we will have to face that.., Surgery on it´s way !!

BTW, I think I know who would like to see that surgery on live! even though it´s not that complicated I guess...jajajajja

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

When Page_Load Does / Will Not Fire!
Visual Studio At It Again :-)
So I decided I didn't have any more gunpowder in my Page_Load - it wouldn't fire!! In having problems with my default.aspx page not running the Page_Load function I found out after watching the files that Visual Studio .NET was removing my code from the InitializeCompenent() function. I am not sure why but I simply replaced:

this.Load += new System.EventHandler(this.Page_Load);

in the function and I was good to go. Of course this also can apply if a form doesn't seem to submit on your onClick code for a button isn't running (ASP.NET onClick code). If this is the case make sure it has a System.EventHandler in the InitializeComponent() function.

Perfume..

This was funny, today I was waiting for my 6AM teacher to arrive, so I was in the outter part of the building.., while I was there a lot of people came in (Naturally) and I don´t know what happened to my nose today .., but I started to smell pretty deep every single perfume of every single person that got into the building.. Some people use, others don´t.., but then came this woman.., she was a teacher I guess, she wasn´t the most pretiest woman or something, she was pretty tough..., however the thing is that her perfume almost killed me...., I mean, it was just sooooo good.., it was like the smell of something soft, definetivelly the smell was yellow, very natural by the way....., very pleasant and ethereal.. kind of sweet but I´m not so sure what´s a sour smell, so this point it´s a little bit senseless...., I almost asked her what was the name of it....., I was dying for it.... It was like a candy, like something sweet, that tastes good, that you want to keep tasting and tasting and tasting it..... I´m sure the name of that perfume was "New West", because I remember that when I was a child one of my mothers friend used to use that perfume, and every time I smelled her I told to my mom that I wanted her to buy it.., that smell definetively kills me......, I like it sooooo soooooo sooooo much.


Then another woman came in, this time the effect was completely different..., her perfume smelled pretty bad, like hell (Well, I haven´t been in hell so..), but it was like a very artificial smell, like something extrange, without essence, without that special thing........, like sour..., like somehting that you don´t want to get into your nose..., like something that you wish didn´t existed...

3 $200 coins !

In the last week I have found 3 $200 coins in different locations of the city, one I found it in the street near my office, another one in the Gym, and the other one in mmmmmm........, can´t remember right now..but that´s definetively a lot of coincidence......, ...., why ?
Got it, i also found the other coin at the Gym too..

Maybe a magical number ?? Let´s try some combinations: 3200, 600, 2300, 5 (+ of all the numbers), 3020, 2030, 2003, 3002..., does any one of this numbers means anything to me?? Kind of cryptic though..

Paintball....

After playing more that 30 times, I had an accident.., I wasn´t hurted at all, but a friend did.... He was trying to clean his mask inside the field..., and while he was doing it a ball hitted it and one of the parts of the paintball hitted him in his eye, causing some damage on the cornea and a some other in the Retina.., the docs said that he´s not loosing his eye.., however he had today at 2:00PM an eye surgery.., I´m gonna call him later on to see how everything went....





After that incident we continued playing and had plenty of fun...

Esteban el mago..

Last weekend I went to a very poor zone of the city, this time to teach the children how to take care of their body, my part was about how to take care of their lungs..., so I did a pretty cool experiment that I did learn at the science fair a couple of years ago.., it was about showing them what happened when a person smoked a cigarrete..., so I did it using a Coca Cola Bottle, full of cotton, and in the top of it one cigarette attached, so when I pressed the bottle it throwed out air, and after that sucking a lot of it, making of course the same process that somebody smoking does. After some cigarettes the cotton started to turn yellow, thing that impressed sooo much not even the kinds but the older people that were there...





This activity was organized by "El CES", a very important university in Medellín.