No time at all !

With no time at all, this last weeks and weekends have been somehow the worst..., not even being able to go out, to chill out or to do just and simple nothing because of the study. My thesis is taking almost all of my time if you take in mind that it consists only of the weekends and the nights after work, with análisis numérico final work that its supoussed to be a 3 persons job actually being done only by me, because the other 2 guys are like in the stratosphere or something like that..., and if you add to all of that the normal studen life quizes and partials then my time is more than full..., and sometimes I like that but after a while I get tired of it. This week I was sopussed to start again at the gym, but my hand wasn´t that good at all, and at the same time had plenty of school related things to do and I really miss it.., maninly because I breath a different kind of air there..., my body gets oxigenated which makes me feel ok even if I´m pretty stressed out..
There´s something that I haven´t posted here already, codenamed ITP, but I don´t want to get into details upon I have something more certain that what I have now....

My last post was "Maybe" and it was yesterday.., I really liked that song.., from stereophonics.., it has a "I don´t what in a I don´t know where", I guess that´s the reason I liked it sooo much.

Maybe..

Maybe one thing
Maybe something
Maybe nothing
All I know is friend
Its nothing new

Maybe its me
What is to be?
Maybe lucky
All I ask is where
Were sposed to be

I give a lot
I take a lot
Its nothing new to me

Maybe youve grown
Am I so wrong
How longs too long
All I want is us to be happy

Maybe moving
Always proving
Am I losing
All thats meant to be?
Thats meant to be?

Ya hear a lot
Ya told a lot
Its nothing new to me

Maybe laughing
Something lacking
Always sometimes
All I hear is how, its meant to be

Maybe learning
Always searching
Am I asking
Things Ill know too soon?
Ill know too soon

We talk a lot
Dont do a lot
Its nothing new to me

I give a lot
I take a lot

Its nothing new to me

Funny Picture..

When Heading to Carambolas Rosy took and modified this picture and putted on me a kind of "mask", it was pretty funny...., she called it "Batman"....
The one on my left is my uncle Diego with a kind of modification too on his forehead.

Book : )

In spanish its called "Un mundo feliz" but I searched for it on Amazon.com and found that the name is "Brave new world" written by Aldous Huxley.

Amazon.com
"Community, Identity, Stability" is the motto of Aldous Huxley's utopian World State. Here everyone consumes daily grams of soma, to fight depression, babies are born in laboratories, and the most popular form of entertainment is a "Feelie," a movie that stimulates the senses of sight, hearing, and touch. Though there is no violence and everyone is provided for, Bernard Marx feels something is missing and senses his relationship with a young women has the potential to be much more than the confines of their existence allow. Huxley foreshadowed many of the practices and gadgets we take for granted today--let's hope the sterility and absence of individuality he predicted aren't yet to come. --This text refers to an out of print or unavailable edition of this title. "

I finish reading it yesterday, and it like it very much...., sometimes I even think that today society shall have some of the points he describes it in the book where the concept of "individual" doesn´t exist at all, but as I said "ONLY SOMETIMES!!!" because somehow that would create a kind of order, balance and equity in this unbalanced world.

We can see in nature, ants for example since the first moment they born they already have a place and a described function in their society, for example the workers ants are going to be workers for the rest of their lives until they die, you won´t never see a worker ant becoming a warrior, or become king or something like that.., that´s how they keep their balance, and we can see that panorama in other species..., but the problem comes when the species can think and when the species can make questions about his own life..., when it sees differences...

In the other hand, a question that just came to my mind.., what would happen if in Huxley´s society people ran out of "soma"?? if for any reason the natural resources used to make it just ran out ?? I guess they would figure something else out, but in the meantime their society would become a chaos !!! So, he´s world is not perfect at all for the simple reason that people is not happy, and that´s why they need to be taking that pills all the time..., so is it really worth it to have a balanced world if people is unhappy? Switzerland for example is somehow a "perfect" country full of beauty, full of nature and with no crime, no poverty, no hunger, no nothing !!! But is the country with the HIGHEST rate of suicide !!!!!
Latin America, one of the most poor continets in the world, acording to a research is where people lives more happier !!! and if we take a deep look we have a lot of poverty, crime, and I can continue listing things here... BUT that´s what makes the difference, that´s what makes that every day counts ! that every day is different and has its own flavor !! Maybe the feeling that we don´t know how tomorrow is going to be is what keep us like that..

I guess unbalance is the price that we have to pay for being happy......

Hangover..

Today I´m a little bit hangovered....
Yesterday was poveda´s birthday.., we went to "El Sombrero" in Envigado City..., we had a pretty cool time..., the thing is that I didn´t have dinner.., so at poveda´s house I had 3 tequillas and that was enough to get me drunk.., well not drunk exactly but a little bit.
I think that the last time that I drank was 1 or 2 months ago..., so much work, so much study..., so many things...

I´m trying to work in my thesis and at the same give poveda advice on his and honestly I can´t focus.., I hate when that happens.., I mean..., being hangovered is the worst.

Tonia drove my car yesterday.., I wasn´t that drunk to not being capable of driving..., but it was just as a precaution..., it´s just so good when you have somebody that takes care of the driving..

Today is Thursday and I´ve advanced so much my thesis..., I haven´t done anything except working on it........, I need a rest.

Quote of the day..

I read it today, and found it very true in my life:

Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh.
- WH Auden

Surgery on it´s way..

I can see it coming and I don´t want that day to arrive..

I have this terrible pain on my right hand again, the doc says it´s because of the highly use of the computer, so I´ll have to go and do some exams on it to see if it´s necesary or not.... It feels pretty weird actually, because it´s not pain, I mean, it´s pain but not that one that is really hard on you, this one feels quite extrange, it feels like if a beam of electricity went over it..

At the Gym it´s also becoming a problem..., because in some exercises I can feel that beam and I hate it... So I guess esteban that we will have to face that.., Surgery on it´s way !!

BTW, I think I know who would like to see that surgery on live! even though it´s not that complicated I guess...jajajajja

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

When Page_Load Does / Will Not Fire!
Visual Studio At It Again :-)
So I decided I didn't have any more gunpowder in my Page_Load - it wouldn't fire!! In having problems with my default.aspx page not running the Page_Load function I found out after watching the files that Visual Studio .NET was removing my code from the InitializeCompenent() function. I am not sure why but I simply replaced:

this.Load += new System.EventHandler(this.Page_Load);

in the function and I was good to go. Of course this also can apply if a form doesn't seem to submit on your onClick code for a button isn't running (ASP.NET onClick code). If this is the case make sure it has a System.EventHandler in the InitializeComponent() function.

Perfume..

This was funny, today I was waiting for my 6AM teacher to arrive, so I was in the outter part of the building.., while I was there a lot of people came in (Naturally) and I don´t know what happened to my nose today .., but I started to smell pretty deep every single perfume of every single person that got into the building.. Some people use, others don´t.., but then came this woman.., she was a teacher I guess, she wasn´t the most pretiest woman or something, she was pretty tough..., however the thing is that her perfume almost killed me...., I mean, it was just sooooo good.., it was like the smell of something soft, definetivelly the smell was yellow, very natural by the way....., very pleasant and ethereal.. kind of sweet but I´m not so sure what´s a sour smell, so this point it´s a little bit senseless...., I almost asked her what was the name of it....., I was dying for it.... It was like a candy, like something sweet, that tastes good, that you want to keep tasting and tasting and tasting it..... I´m sure the name of that perfume was "New West", because I remember that when I was a child one of my mothers friend used to use that perfume, and every time I smelled her I told to my mom that I wanted her to buy it.., that smell definetively kills me......, I like it sooooo soooooo sooooo much.


Then another woman came in, this time the effect was completely different..., her perfume smelled pretty bad, like hell (Well, I haven´t been in hell so..), but it was like a very artificial smell, like something extrange, without essence, without that special thing........, like sour..., like somehting that you don´t want to get into your nose..., like something that you wish didn´t existed...

3 $200 coins !

In the last week I have found 3 $200 coins in different locations of the city, one I found it in the street near my office, another one in the Gym, and the other one in mmmmmm........, can´t remember right now..but that´s definetively a lot of coincidence......, ...., why ?
Got it, i also found the other coin at the Gym too..

Maybe a magical number ?? Let´s try some combinations: 3200, 600, 2300, 5 (+ of all the numbers), 3020, 2030, 2003, 3002..., does any one of this numbers means anything to me?? Kind of cryptic though..

Paintball....

After playing more that 30 times, I had an accident.., I wasn´t hurted at all, but a friend did.... He was trying to clean his mask inside the field..., and while he was doing it a ball hitted it and one of the parts of the paintball hitted him in his eye, causing some damage on the cornea and a some other in the Retina.., the docs said that he´s not loosing his eye.., however he had today at 2:00PM an eye surgery.., I´m gonna call him later on to see how everything went....





After that incident we continued playing and had plenty of fun...

Esteban el mago..

Last weekend I went to a very poor zone of the city, this time to teach the children how to take care of their body, my part was about how to take care of their lungs..., so I did a pretty cool experiment that I did learn at the science fair a couple of years ago.., it was about showing them what happened when a person smoked a cigarrete..., so I did it using a Coca Cola Bottle, full of cotton, and in the top of it one cigarette attached, so when I pressed the bottle it throwed out air, and after that sucking a lot of it, making of course the same process that somebody smoking does. After some cigarettes the cotton started to turn yellow, thing that impressed sooo much not even the kinds but the older people that were there...





This activity was organized by "El CES", a very important university in Medellín.

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I took all of these pictures last weekend in a Neighborhood called Carambolas,

located in a very poor zone of the city.
I´ve never seen before anybody so happy because he or she is going to be
photographed !! This kids enjoyed every single part of the process..., I wish
sometimes I could do the same.....



I feel a lot of sorry for them, they are children with no oportunities at all even
if there´s some people that say that they have plenty of them, a lot of missing
things on their lifes like LOVE, sometimes their parents can´t pay enough atention
to them because of the long hours that they have to work just to earn a minimum
salary (today is the day where I can´t already understand how can anybody live with
that amount of money.... and in most of the cases more than 4 people live with this
amount for 1 month), maybe they can´t eat three times or as many as we want each
day, childrens that in a lot of situations have to work just to get a little bit of
money to buy the food of the day, money that for example we spend in expensive
clothing, party, travelling, cocktails, cafés, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera....

The only conclusion that I can get here is that life is not fair.., what I mean
is.., what makes me different.., what did I do, or what did they do, or who choose
why I´m where I am, and why one of those kids is where he is ? I mean, why amn´t I
in their position and they in mine? Or why aren´t we in the same situation?? It´s
just not fair...

Why everything needs to have two sides instead of only one???....for example black
or white, love or hate, happines or sadness, hot or cold, poor or rich, low or high,
vanilla or chocholate, friendly or unfriendly, ally or enemy, live or die, give or
take, construct or destruct, breathe or not breathe, ying or yang, kill or born,
down or up, left or right, good or wrong, hell and heaven, angel or deamon, proton
or electron, known or unknow....., why aren´t we in the same position ?? in the same
situation? In the same side? In the same edge? That would avoid a lot of conflicts
and wars.... The only answer that I find for this is that we need the balance to
LIVE, YESSSS !!! but at the same time a balance that is killing us !

Some people say that freedom is the ability to choose, yes I agree with that, but at
the same time I think that the ability to choose is somehow a curse in a world where
things are NOT well balanced, like ours.... I know that choosing makes the
difference, for good or bad..., but just take a look at it from this point of view..
How diferent the world would be if we wouldn´t need to make any choice at all in
our lifes..., for the simple reason that the "choice as choice" didn´t exist at all!
No choices !! which means..., a simpler life.., somehow untasty..., but without all
the sad things that we see today...., everybody on the same situation, a kind of
global comunism, but without a top, without a government, without a board, without
rich people, without poor people.... But I guess that in this "perfect" situation I
would also find people trying to take advantage of others, trying to get more from
the others..., which if he look in the long term will get as a result the same
situation that we have today...... So then I guess that the problem is not the
balance, it´s the human kind itself...