This is the lyric of a song that I like very much, from pink floyd..., guess why I´m putting it here !!!
Wish You Were Here
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange
a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Monday, February 20, 2006
Lucid Dream..
I don´t know if I hate "real dreams" or if I don´t, yesterday was sunday...., I was veryyyy tired, after working the hole weekend..., one week after another, I couldn´t be in a better shape though..., so I just had this "real" dream....., everything was just sooo real...., I tried to wake up from it but I couldn´t, so I tought: Ok, this has to be real....., it felt just so good..., then I woke up and realized that it was a dream, and that it was as real as my reality..., only that it didn´t happened on it.., what if dreams are real lifes in another frecuencies?? or parallel lifes that we just hop on them when we fall asleep ?? It´s just so incredible to think that my brain is capable of reproducing sounds, images, voices, sounds, characters, stories while I´m asleep.... How cool would it be if there were a machine where you could record your own dreams ?? What if my life is and endless dream ?? How can you tell the difference between a real dream and the real reality ? I mean, there´s no way to do it until you wake up..., and what if you wake up from this dream when you die ?? I don´t know.., those are just broken ideas that are flying by me head right now....... what if...what if....what if.....
The funny thing is that right now I´m eating a mango..., so I eat a piece of it, and my mouth send the signals to my brain telling it that it tastes yummy....., so I enjoy it and continue eating.., one piece after another.... The same thing happens on a dream.., only electrical charges that make me beleive that what I´m doing is "real", but here I come again.., what´s the definition of "real" ?? What about "electric impulses" ????
I know.., that would sound pretty sad and empty, because life is more than that...., but then.., what´s that "more than that" ?????
Suddenly this movie "Vanilla sky" comes to my mind..., and what if there´s a way to create a "lucid dream" where you can be that person that you always wanted to be ? The point is, what difference would it make to live in a dream that you don´t know it´s a dream, and a "real life" that you don´t know what it is ?
BTW, I couldn´t wake up this morning for 6AM class...
The funny thing is that right now I´m eating a mango..., so I eat a piece of it, and my mouth send the signals to my brain telling it that it tastes yummy....., so I enjoy it and continue eating.., one piece after another.... The same thing happens on a dream.., only electrical charges that make me beleive that what I´m doing is "real", but here I come again.., what´s the definition of "real" ?? What about "electric impulses" ????
I know.., that would sound pretty sad and empty, because life is more than that...., but then.., what´s that "more than that" ?????
Suddenly this movie "Vanilla sky" comes to my mind..., and what if there´s a way to create a "lucid dream" where you can be that person that you always wanted to be ? The point is, what difference would it make to live in a dream that you don´t know it´s a dream, and a "real life" that you don´t know what it is ?
BTW, I couldn´t wake up this morning for 6AM class...
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Capuccino over me...
After having lunch we went to the Tiger Market in the Esso Gas Station and happens that I was talking to a friend from work, he was holding an empty cup of capuccino, we were laughing at something, so he moved very fast the cup and it was holding a small drops of coffee already, so guess where did they crash ?? On me !!!
And that´s not the end of story..., while we were drinking the coffees at the store I started to play with the smal stick that they give you to spin the sugar !! Spin spin sugar !!! Spin Spin sugar !!! So ok, I was playing with it, spining the sugar, and happens that I did spill my yummy capuccino over the hole table..., and I just have tasted it a couple of times..., the lady from the counter saw my sad accident and gave me a new one.. Of course that all the people that were with me were joking and laughing..., anyway it was fun though.
And that´s not the end of story..., while we were drinking the coffees at the store I started to play with the smal stick that they give you to spin the sugar !! Spin spin sugar !!! Spin Spin sugar !!! So ok, I was playing with it, spining the sugar, and happens that I did spill my yummy capuccino over the hole table..., and I just have tasted it a couple of times..., the lady from the counter saw my sad accident and gave me a new one.. Of course that all the people that were with me were joking and laughing..., anyway it was fun though.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
One Hundred Rules for NASA Project Managers.
This is a paper that I wrote today for an Asignature, I found it soo important that I wanted it to remain forever.
1.A project manager should visit everyone who is building anything for his project at least once, should know all the managers on his project (both government and contractor), and know the integration team members. People like to know that the project manager is interested in their work and the best proof is for the manager to visit them and see first hand what they are doing.
2.Don't get too egotistical so that you can't change your position, especially if your personnel tell you that you are wrong. You should cultivate an attitude on the project where your personnel know they can tell you of wrong decisions.
3.A manager who is his own systems engineer or financial manager is one who will probably try to do open heart surgery on himself.
4.The seeds of problems are laid down early. Initial planning is the most vital part of a project. The review of most failed projects or project problems indicate the disasters were well planned to happen from the start.
5.Cooperative efforts require good communications and early warning systems. A project manager should try to keep his partners aware of what is going on and should be the one who tells them first of any rumor or actual changes in plan. The partners should be consulted before things are put in final form, even if they only have a small piece of the action. A project manager who blindsides his partners will be treated in kind and will be considered a person of no integrity.
6.You cannot watch everything. What you can watch is the people. They have to know you will not accept a poor job.
7.If you have someone who doesn't look, ask, and analyze; ask them to transfer.
8.People who monitor work and don't help get it done never seem to know exactly what is going on (being involved is the key to excellence).
9.There is no greater motivation than giving a good person his piece of the puzzle to control, but a pat on the back or an award helps.
10.Hide nothing from the reviewers. Their reputation and yours is on the line. Expose all the warts and pimples. Don't offer excuses—just state facts.
11.Documentation does not take the place of knowledge. There is a great difference in what is supposed to be, what is thought to have happened, and reality. Documents are normally a static picture in time that get outdated rapidly.
12.Being friendly with a contractor is fine—being a friend of a contractor is dangerous to your objectivity.
13.There is only one solution to a weak project manager in industry—get rid of him fast. The main job of a project manager in industry is to keep the customer happy. Make sure the one working with you knows that it is not flattery but on-schedule, on-cost, and a good product that makes you happy.
14.Remember the boss has the right to make decisions. Even if you think they are wrong, tell the boss what you think but if he still wants it done his way; do it his way and do your best to make sure the outcome is successful.
15.Never ask management to make a decision that you can make. Assume you have the authority to make decisions unless you know there is a document that states unequivocally that you can't.
16.Most of yesteryear's projects overran because of poor estimates and not because of mistakes. Getting better estimates will not lower costs but will improve NASA's business reputation. Actually, there is a high probability that getting better estimates will increase costs and assure a higher profit to industry unless the fee is reduced to reflect lower risk on the part of industry. A better reputation is necessary in the present environment.
17.All problems are solvable in time, so make sure you have enough schedule contingency—if you don't, the next project manager that takes your place will.
18.Wrong decisions made early can be recovered from. Right decisions made late cannot correct them.
19.Never assume someone knows something or has done something unless you have asked them; even the obvious is overlooked or ignored on occasion, especially in a high stress activity.
20.Never make excuses; instead, present plans of actions to be taken.
All of these ideas were extracted from the following link:
http://www.altisinc.com/Links/100_Rules.html#ProjectMgr
1.A project manager should visit everyone who is building anything for his project at least once, should know all the managers on his project (both government and contractor), and know the integration team members. People like to know that the project manager is interested in their work and the best proof is for the manager to visit them and see first hand what they are doing.
2.Don't get too egotistical so that you can't change your position, especially if your personnel tell you that you are wrong. You should cultivate an attitude on the project where your personnel know they can tell you of wrong decisions.
3.A manager who is his own systems engineer or financial manager is one who will probably try to do open heart surgery on himself.
4.The seeds of problems are laid down early. Initial planning is the most vital part of a project. The review of most failed projects or project problems indicate the disasters were well planned to happen from the start.
5.Cooperative efforts require good communications and early warning systems. A project manager should try to keep his partners aware of what is going on and should be the one who tells them first of any rumor or actual changes in plan. The partners should be consulted before things are put in final form, even if they only have a small piece of the action. A project manager who blindsides his partners will be treated in kind and will be considered a person of no integrity.
6.You cannot watch everything. What you can watch is the people. They have to know you will not accept a poor job.
7.If you have someone who doesn't look, ask, and analyze; ask them to transfer.
8.People who monitor work and don't help get it done never seem to know exactly what is going on (being involved is the key to excellence).
9.There is no greater motivation than giving a good person his piece of the puzzle to control, but a pat on the back or an award helps.
10.Hide nothing from the reviewers. Their reputation and yours is on the line. Expose all the warts and pimples. Don't offer excuses—just state facts.
11.Documentation does not take the place of knowledge. There is a great difference in what is supposed to be, what is thought to have happened, and reality. Documents are normally a static picture in time that get outdated rapidly.
12.Being friendly with a contractor is fine—being a friend of a contractor is dangerous to your objectivity.
13.There is only one solution to a weak project manager in industry—get rid of him fast. The main job of a project manager in industry is to keep the customer happy. Make sure the one working with you knows that it is not flattery but on-schedule, on-cost, and a good product that makes you happy.
14.Remember the boss has the right to make decisions. Even if you think they are wrong, tell the boss what you think but if he still wants it done his way; do it his way and do your best to make sure the outcome is successful.
15.Never ask management to make a decision that you can make. Assume you have the authority to make decisions unless you know there is a document that states unequivocally that you can't.
16.Most of yesteryear's projects overran because of poor estimates and not because of mistakes. Getting better estimates will not lower costs but will improve NASA's business reputation. Actually, there is a high probability that getting better estimates will increase costs and assure a higher profit to industry unless the fee is reduced to reflect lower risk on the part of industry. A better reputation is necessary in the present environment.
17.All problems are solvable in time, so make sure you have enough schedule contingency—if you don't, the next project manager that takes your place will.
18.Wrong decisions made early can be recovered from. Right decisions made late cannot correct them.
19.Never assume someone knows something or has done something unless you have asked them; even the obvious is overlooked or ignored on occasion, especially in a high stress activity.
20.Never make excuses; instead, present plans of actions to be taken.
All of these ideas were extracted from the following link:
http://www.altisinc.com/Links/100_Rules.html#ProjectMgr
are you asking me that if I´m used to that ?
Then my answer would be a BIG and HUGE YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS, I don´t know if I should laugh at myself or what but this is just incredible...., or is it coincidence??
Anyway.......
Anyway.......
Thursday, February 09, 2006
The sweet is not as sweet without the sour...
Some people says than when you get something throughout a lot of work you enjoy it much more than if you get it in an easy way...
So far I´ve been realizing that if I want something, and I get that something pretty easy I don´t enjoy it, or well, maybe I enjoy it for a while but it doesn´t last long..., to make my idea more clearer I´m going to use an example... Imagine that you´re playing a computer game, you´re in a level where you have to rescue the kidnaped princes (The usual game, huh?) by a very very evil character.... So you try and you try and you try and nothing, you´re not able to rescue her, you always get defeated by the evil guy........, you try for days until you manage to rescue her.... the result of it is that you enjoy it soooo much, you tell to all your friends, you tell them how you did it and how you learned to defeat the bad guy, so it creates a discussion and then you get calls from your friends asking you how you did it and soo and soo on........, the thing is that you went throughout a lot of stuff to learn how to defeat it.
Now let´s see the other face of the coin... You type a cheat code on the game and suddenly you defeat the bad guy and rescue the prince in a matter of seconds... The result? The game makes no sense now (At least for me)....., so my conclusion is that when things are easy they´re not as interesting as when they´re challenging........, I always want new challenges..., and that´s something that from one perspective it´s ok, but from another it isn´t...... The point that I want to make here is when is it going to end? When my life ends? When I get where I want to get ? I know that this last one is not the answer... ,because there´s always going to be another challenge..., and as human been happiness is only a uthopy, is something that doesn´t exist at all, or at least something that is continues..., what I mean is that you can reach it just for moments...., then it´s gone...., then it appears again..., it´s like a kind of balance.., just imagine you being happy all the time..., you won´t be able to realize what happiness is then because you haven´t tasted the sour and the ugly...., don´t having as a result a point of comparison. Then I realize that the sweet is not as sweet without the sour......., and if you taste the sweet for a long time eventualy you get tired of it so you´ll want to get some sour.., the same happens in the opposite direction.., so in order to keep things working a balance must exists..., and that´s what life is about.
So far I´ve been realizing that if I want something, and I get that something pretty easy I don´t enjoy it, or well, maybe I enjoy it for a while but it doesn´t last long..., to make my idea more clearer I´m going to use an example... Imagine that you´re playing a computer game, you´re in a level where you have to rescue the kidnaped princes (The usual game, huh?) by a very very evil character.... So you try and you try and you try and nothing, you´re not able to rescue her, you always get defeated by the evil guy........, you try for days until you manage to rescue her.... the result of it is that you enjoy it soooo much, you tell to all your friends, you tell them how you did it and how you learned to defeat the bad guy, so it creates a discussion and then you get calls from your friends asking you how you did it and soo and soo on........, the thing is that you went throughout a lot of stuff to learn how to defeat it.
Now let´s see the other face of the coin... You type a cheat code on the game and suddenly you defeat the bad guy and rescue the prince in a matter of seconds... The result? The game makes no sense now (At least for me)....., so my conclusion is that when things are easy they´re not as interesting as when they´re challenging........, I always want new challenges..., and that´s something that from one perspective it´s ok, but from another it isn´t...... The point that I want to make here is when is it going to end? When my life ends? When I get where I want to get ? I know that this last one is not the answer... ,because there´s always going to be another challenge..., and as human been happiness is only a uthopy, is something that doesn´t exist at all, or at least something that is continues..., what I mean is that you can reach it just for moments...., then it´s gone...., then it appears again..., it´s like a kind of balance.., just imagine you being happy all the time..., you won´t be able to realize what happiness is then because you haven´t tasted the sour and the ugly...., don´t having as a result a point of comparison. Then I realize that the sweet is not as sweet without the sour......., and if you taste the sweet for a long time eventualy you get tired of it so you´ll want to get some sour.., the same happens in the opposite direction.., so in order to keep things working a balance must exists..., and that´s what life is about.
Friday, February 03, 2006
Sad....
It´s 6:02AM, I´m sitting on my car waiting for the traffic light to change....., usually in this place there´s a guy who sell candys, cigarretes and some groceries for living, I thing he got to the city because of the violence, sometimes he asks for money while he´s holding a piece of paper which says he´s story and why he needs money......
Well, so I looked to my right and saw this guy, 6:02AM in the morning, and I ask myself, what is he doing here at this time..., and at what time did he have to wake up to arrive here, because I´m pretty sure that he lives in the other side of the city...
He´s just sitting on a small box, looking to the infitie while he enjoys a cigarrete...., he´s wearing the same clothes as he wear almost every day...., I feel sad for him...., and at the same time I find myself useless at least for him at the moment..., I can give him some money, but it will only fix some of his problems for the day.., it won´t be a permanent solution..., and that´s the sad part of the story.., I mean, he can feed his family for one day, maybe for a couple of days, but what about the rest of the week? the rest of the month? the rest of the year?
Thousands of people are in the same situation right now..., and somehow I just feel useless because regargind that I´m doing something for it it´s not enough....., and it´s not fair that while most of us are having a good time, eating well or maybe at least having something to eat, going out and spending money on drinks, money that for this people will last for one week or two and not only for one person but for a few of them...., again that´s not fair. Sometimes I just feel so bad when I go out and at the end of the night when I pay the bill I realize that with this money a family that right now doesn´t have anything to eat could be eating maybe for a week..., again, that it´s not fair... I just feel bad about it...
Well, so I looked to my right and saw this guy, 6:02AM in the morning, and I ask myself, what is he doing here at this time..., and at what time did he have to wake up to arrive here, because I´m pretty sure that he lives in the other side of the city...
He´s just sitting on a small box, looking to the infitie while he enjoys a cigarrete...., he´s wearing the same clothes as he wear almost every day...., I feel sad for him...., and at the same time I find myself useless at least for him at the moment..., I can give him some money, but it will only fix some of his problems for the day.., it won´t be a permanent solution..., and that´s the sad part of the story.., I mean, he can feed his family for one day, maybe for a couple of days, but what about the rest of the week? the rest of the month? the rest of the year?
Thousands of people are in the same situation right now..., and somehow I just feel useless because regargind that I´m doing something for it it´s not enough....., and it´s not fair that while most of us are having a good time, eating well or maybe at least having something to eat, going out and spending money on drinks, money that for this people will last for one week or two and not only for one person but for a few of them...., again that´s not fair. Sometimes I just feel so bad when I go out and at the end of the night when I pay the bill I realize that with this money a family that right now doesn´t have anything to eat could be eating maybe for a week..., again, that it´s not fair... I just feel bad about it...
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Like a Kid..
I open the door of my car get inside it and close the door, start the engine and put first gear..., slowly the car starts to move ,then I switch to second gear, I open my window..., and get my hand outside of it putting it against the air that´s coming from the distance..., my hand starts to fly but not enough.., so I decide to step a little bit more on the gas, reaching third gear...., now my hand has enough sustentation to fly by itselt.., I can move it, but I have to do it quitely, otherwise it will move quite fast...., I decide to put more speed, so I step on the gas and swith to 4th gear, a little bit more and suddenly I´m in the 5th gear, my hand now is really flying like a wing..., I can feel the air underneath it pulling it towards the sky....., I move it a little bit to the left and it responses inmediatly moving towars the left..., then to the right and it does the same......., it feels so goooood, it´s like flying.... I slowly start to move my fingers pointing the sky and my hand starts to gain altitude.., it´s so funny...., then I realize that I have to point my fingers down so I can have control of it..., my hand starts to descend.., slowly...slowly......., slowly enough so I can enjoy it......... Suddenly I realize that I have to turn right so I slow down, get my hand inside the window and the trip it´s over..... at least for now..
-Esteban
-Esteban
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