Just....

"Many people have great difficulty telling the difference between reality and shadows as perceived reality."
-Plato -

Got a New Plant..

Today I went into Laura's office (Next door) and there was a BIG plant over there.., without being watered for at least 1 month..., so I asked her if she was thinking on putting water on it, and she told me that if I wanted it I can keep it.., so I brought it into my office.., now I feel better with it.. I just put some water but the Moisture Meter keep the arrow in the "dry" state..., I'll wait until tomorrow, you know son.., the water has to go down..., and then I'll take a decision.
:P
BTW, I'll put a picture of it in a couple of days.., I don't have my Camera here.

Business....$$$$$$$$

That's what I'm thinking all the time..., I just want to get back to Colombia and set up my very new Business. I'm getting some customers here in Switzerland to be able to work from my Country (Colombia) while I finish my studies.
Clear Objectives..that's the key !

Another flawlessly week..

No more stalking letters from this women during the last week !! I think that I finally got rid of her !
Good work Esteban !! keep it UP !

Germany and the Netherlands..

After reading the 98 emails that were waiting for me on my inbox, I'm being able to plan a little bit the travel that I'll be performing this friday with Vero Henao, a very good friend that is doing one semester of her university in Belgium. First we'll go to Karlsruhe where Andres Poveda, another friend from Colombia that is doing the same as Vero, and meet there, shortly after that, we'll go to Münich, then Berlin, later on Cologne where I'll meet my friend "Lufer" (Finallyyyyyyyyyyyy) and have some drinks and party with him; I'll say bye to Vero, she will get back to Belgium and then I'll continue climbing the continent until the Netherlands, more particularly until Amsterdam, where I'll spend 2 days... then I'll get back to my beloved Basel.
That sounds like a plan Boy..., but please ! First check your visas !!! Jejeje, I already did..., I'll only have to go throughout Schengen Zone.., so I'm expecting NO PROBLEMS this time.

End of transmission.

Trying to look like Mules...

After seeing this movie "Maria Full of Grace", my friend Dinko got very affected by it and all the time he was speaking about "Blanca", "Lucy" and "Maria", the ladies that act as mules on the movie. Somehow, on our way to croatia, one of our friends brought a package of snacks.., and each of those was of the size of the balls that the "mules" ate at the movie. He then thought that he was a mule, taking one of the snacks, simulating that he was putting it first on a pot full of oil (to make it go easier throught the throat), shortly after that he swallowed it. Boy he almost got killed !!! He told me not to do it, but I did..., the rest of the trip my throat was dying.

Bye Bye Croatia..

I was going to Croatia on thursday of last week with Dinko and 2 girls more (the 3 of them from Croatia) and after 10 hours of being in a car, we arrove to the slovenian border Between Italy and Slovenia if course...., it happens that it is part of the European Union but it's not a Schengen State already, SO to go across the country I was supossed to have a visa for it, which I didn't have by that time.... Holy crap............, what next ? Calm down my friends.., we wen't then to Italy again and drove to a city by the sea called "Trieste", so the 2 girls droped us there (Dinko and me of course) at 5:30 PM to try to get a visa the next morning. Obviously we couldn't because we only found a consulate, and what we were needing was an embassy.
We slept in a crappy Hostel, it looked more like this motels of "mala muerte", but anyway..., the next day I didn't even take a shower because of the status of the bathroom... However, we found out that it wasn't going to be possible to get a visa, so Dinko took a train back to Croatia, and I took a train first to Venezia, then to Milano, then to Chiasso, then to Lugano, and then finally to Basel. Got home very late in the night....

No more presents..

Finally my stalker decided to not send any more presents and/or letters. I guess that she got deceived when I wrote her that I was gay. Obviously I'm not, but it was the only way to get rid of her without hurting her feelings even though if she sent me very nasty things.

Just....

The sweet is not as sweet without the sour.

Movie Night.

Yesterday I went to watch the movie "Maria Full of Grace", it shows how the drugs are transported by "mules" from Colombia to the United States. It's very crude, somehow I was kind of sad and bored after it, maybe because my country is being shown to the rest of the world with this kind of things that people is doing to try to get a descent life or to solve money problems.

It's just sad to see how people is being treated in this black market like it's name "mules", not like human beings, loosing all their dignity.

In the other hand, I liked it, because as I said, it's a crude movie that sows the reality, generating impressions and as a fact generating change or at least in the worst case some reflection with the masses.

Caffeine = Headache ?

I have been with a headache for almost a week..., sometimes it goes away, and sometimes it comes back. The point it that I'm having lot's of caffeine, maybe 4 or 5 cups/daily... I know, it's not healthy (I read that on the web).

That's why I started today my "Reduce Caffeine Campaign" with the objective to reduce/eliminate the daily coffees to at most 2 by the moment, and eventually to 0 (I know it's gonna be hard, cuz that's my daily fuel).

Took 2 advils 1:30 Hours ago, and it's gone.., hope to keep it away for the rest of the day...

I have a stalker, and that is freaking me out !

The story began maybe 7 months ago, I was just starting my life here in Basel, and one day I went down stairs (in my apartment) to pick up my bike. What a sourprise, I met with a 60 - 65 years old laddy with a dog, so I say "Hello", and then she replied yelling at me that if I was going to stay in Switzerland I will have to speak Swiss German, she was very mad, but I dont know why. The things remained like that, and I use to hang out a lot with a guys that have a computer store on the first floor of the building (The crazy lady lives in a house in the backyard), and each time we saw her we started to bother her, I was angry with this lady.
One day, that was in summer (July) the lady was in the backyard and I was looking throught the windows, then this guys started yielling something to her, and finally I told her "loca" (That word means crazy in english). For my sourprise, she replied to me in Spanish. I was really curious in knowing why this lady was speaking spanish, so I started talking to her and she told me in 15 minutes almost all her life story. Her father was swiss, and her mother from Peru (I'm not so sure about this part), so she used to live in LA (Read it as Latin America) for some years, that's how she learn to speak spanish (Bingo!). Anyway, to make ths story shorter, we never spoke again..., and the next incident was a bottle of champaign plus a glass in the door of my friends store (Obviously for me). I took it and saw that the cork didn't have the seal, so I was scared that she would have put something on it to poison me or whatsoever. I threw it to the toilet......... I didn't reply nothing to her.
The next week, I got a bottle of "Whisky Johny Walker Red Label", but this time it was properly sealed (It's already on my flat....) and with the next letter:

(In the Envelope)
Para mi querido Sexymen el Colombiano.

(In the Letter)
29.09.2004
Querido Amor, Siempre pienso en ti, donde estoy te veo delante de mi. Hasta ahora no tuvimos la oportunidad de conocernos de mas cerca.Ya sabes que tengo el perro, y tengo mucho que hacer en casa.No me puedes escribir el dia que podamos salir como ya te dije, no aqui ! Quiero estar la noche toda (sin tus amigos) "contigo" abrasada fuerte, sintiendo tu cuerpo abrazados bien fuertes no solo 5 minutos la nocha toda !Te amo abrazo fuerte de Veronique !

Shortly after this letter she sent me another present that was a scarf and a pair of globbes, and they weren't new.. They smelled like hell..., so I threw them again to the trashcan.

Now I'm freaked out..., she sent me today a piece of paper, full of condoms and says:

"Para los maricones el Colombiano you are fire y Amigos ! Lo pueden usar, lo necesitan. Tu Amor Veronique de todo corazon".

I conclude that she's definetively crazy, and somehow that kind of things scare me and a LOT, because you never know what kind of things this people is able to do.

Pure Shores by All Saints.

I like this song....

I've crossed the deserts for miles
Swam water for time
Searching places to find
A piece of something to call mine (I'm comin', I'm comin')
A piece of something to call mine (I'm comin' comin' closer to you)
Ran along many moors
Walked through many doors
The place where I wanna be
Is the place I can call mine (I'm comin', I'm comin')
Is the place I can call mine (I'm comin' comin' closer to you)
[Chorus]
I'm movin', I'm comin'
Can you hear what I hear?
It's calling you my dear out of reach
(Take me to my beach)
I can hear it calling you
I'm comin' not drowning, swimming closer to you
Never been here before
I'm intrigued, I'm unsure
I'm searching for more
I've got something that's all mine (got something that's all mine)
I've got something that's all mine (got something that's all mine)
Take me somewhere I can breathe
I've got so much to see
This is where I want to be
In a place I can call mine (call mine)
In a place I can call mine (call mine)
[Chorus]
I'm movin', I'm comin'
Can you hear what I hear?
It's calling you my dear out of reach
(Take me to my beach)
I can hear it calling you
I'm comin' not drowning, swimming closer to you
Movin, Comin', can you hear what I hear? (Hear it out of reach)
I hear it calling you
Swimming closer to you
Many faces I have seen
Many places I have been
Walked the Deserts, swam the shores (Coming closer to you)
Many faces I have known
Many ways in which I've grown
Movin closer on my own (Coming closer to you)
I'm Movin, I feel it
I'm Comin, Not drowning
I'm Movin, I feel it
I'm Comin, Not drowning

Happiness + Sadness + .... + ... = "Neutraliness"

So the question is: What would you feel if you put in a blender some feelings and sensations like: Happiness, sadness, frustation, confusion, pride, anger, disappointment, stress, impotence and then turn it on ?? All of this will get (Quite fast) mixed, obtaining weird sensations and obviously weird states.
The problem here is that I'm mixing of all this at the same time..., what doesn't allow me to process each thing separately or at least think in future what would be the result (bad thing) expecting the unexpected. I would prefer just to add sensation by sensation, taste what it tastes like, and then add another and another and so on.., having almost a total control over the mixture/situation or at least know what to expect or how to act, what is kind of complicated, because in real life sometimes you can't control when/where the situations are going to arrive.

The result of all of this would be and is something like being in the stratosphere, I don't feel nothing now, it's like a neutral state, and is because some ingredients crash with other ones like when you have two numbers let's say 3 and -3 and then you add them 3 + (-3) = 0. Now, if we replace the 3 for hapiness and the -3 for sadness we would get: (hapiness) + (sadness) = ?.
To resolve this equation first I would to add a new feeling called "neutraliness" and the description would be something like when you're tired enough that you don't feel anymore pain even if it's present, when nothing is important to you any longer...., it's like if you weren't feel anything. Just living.... In other words, the best explanation for these are the maths. A 0 (read it as zero) is the best answer for the equation.

So I get:

(hapiness) + (sadness) = 0 (read as neutraliness).

A Zero..... a big Zero....

Battery cells = Empty

I feel like without energy today.. I just took a strong coffee, but not started yet to feel the effects. It's raining..., and the only thing that I want to do is go to my bed. Each day when I wake up the day is darker and darker..., the're getting shorter...

There are moments like this, when I feel that my life is like a puzzle, and that some parts of it got scrambled, what makes me feel kind of weird and disappointed. I know that I will put them back in order again..., just that when a lot of things comes at the same time I don't know where to start BUT I have to.

Caffeine...

It's 3:05 PM, and I'm falling asleep..., the solution............ caffeine.
I was thinking on taking decaffeinated, the problem is that it doesn't keep me awake but is healthier..., so I decided to take the strongest one and forget about the healthy part of it..., the one in the purple cap... I'm telling you, is really strong... right now is here on my desk, just waiting to be drink... It's with a lot of foam what make it look very yummy !

The Circus !

It's been 8 or more years since the last time I went to the Circus ! A place full of charm, magic and numbers; people making their best to make us have a good moment.
So I went to the circus the last friday night with a couple friends, I felt like a kid again..., just watching and being amazed with all of this people doing their tricks, jumps and I can tell that the circus somehow have evolved..., there's no clowns, instead the main character was Charles Chapplin, and in the meantime when the middle ring was being prepared for another number I was entertained by MIB (Man In Black) with lanterns, higlithing people like if they were looking for somebody.
My conclusion is that's good to be a KID again, its ok to laugh, to have a good moment...., to feel for a while that all that charm of the circus is like the magic.